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Post by Jupiter on Jan 28, 2024 6:31:44 GMT
I need to stop drinking for a while, I think body has reached it's limit. I think I over did it last week. Muscle pain came back, lower back was stiff and sore, could barely walk upright and proper do to back discomfort (almost back to normal now) But I just think, know, when drink to much or to many days in a row, body begins to break down. Life is much more fun (even when things are going wrong) when healthy. About twice a year, I just get to that point where I know I must stop drinking. Drinking has cost me a lot, over the years; has revealed a lot to me, but has also cost me a lot as well.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 5, 2024 0:07:31 GMT
I had one beer this evening, and then stopped. Have another beer in place, which I need to pour into the sink.
I drank that one beer out of habit, just to mellow out my nerves, my energy, but because I really want to stop, I found the will power to stop after just one.
I got new things happening in my life and as such I need my head and mind to be clear, very clear. But even with a clear mind, a clear head, spending money, making decisions, you still don't always know or feel if you're doing the right thing or not. But being sober is learning how to deal with those feelings without turning to booze to help you through 'those feelings'.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 7, 2024 15:14:07 GMT
The weight is dropping, again, since not drinking lately. I look better when I'm thinner and don't drink, who doesn't?
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Post by Jupiter on May 3, 2024 23:38:40 GMT
Beer and to much coffee kicked my butt all day today, from yesterday, and still feel the effect. I even cancelled going to a meeting cause just wasn't going to put my body through that.
Beer, the effects of, will totally wipe your mind of creative thoughts, detailed thoughts. I'm running out of time to correct my life's path...booze will only make it that much harder to do so.
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Post by Jupiter on May 6, 2024 21:11:32 GMT
Got drunk again yesterday and once again made a big fool of myself over the phone and through texting.
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Post by Jupiter on May 6, 2024 21:15:42 GMT
I'm so close to sobriety winning out...it's just sometimes I have to much time on my hands, or I don't know, moods. Sometimes I get happy, and feel the normal feeling of happiness isn't enough, and so convince myself that 'drunk happiness' would be better...but it's never really better, cause then you have to come down, and that's the worst part. Then the next day sleep in late, waste time, drunkenness just cuts in on productivity. And then, on they way home 'check engine' light came on on newer car I have... Does it ever end? The constant draining of your money, seems more dollars are always coming out than in.
And I'm just not a hustling type...I don't really like money, but realize you need money to sustain self and others in this money obsessed world.
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Post by Jupiter on May 7, 2024 0:41:33 GMT
Right now I feel like retreating into the world of drunkenness. It just feels safer to me right now than thinking about all the stuff I'm not strong enough or motivated enough to do.
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Post by Jupiter on May 7, 2024 0:42:51 GMT
But I can't drink as much now, cause I'll be around people more, and I can't afford for my mind, thoughts, speech, to deteriorate.
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Post by Jupiter on May 7, 2024 0:46:16 GMT
I was doing well, a week ago, but all it takes is one or two days of hard drinking, to fall back into that habit. For some reason, I feel scared right now, like doom in impending, and that there's nothing I can do about it. When sober, I don't always feel that way....but after a heavy session of drinking, I sometimes do. I have responsibilities now, to myself...I need to kick this habit, sooner rather than later.
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Post by Jupiter on May 7, 2024 0:47:38 GMT
I feel like I'm on that Titanic, and it's slowly sinking, regardless of the busy work I do, the ship is always sinking.
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