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Post by Jupiter on Apr 23, 2023 2:23:31 GMT
OK, this is the longest I've been without booze in quite some time, going on 4 days.
I mean I don't drink when scheduled to work the next day, but I was off today, and didn't drink.
I even bought beer on the way home, yesterday night, and didn't drink...so I must be onto something.
It's always the first 3 or 4 nights that are the hardest, and I still have like 4 days off, can I sustain this?
Usually all it takes is one errant thought, or mood, and walla, you're drinking again.
Believe it or not, I'm better at resisting drinking when have unopened cans of beer in the place, cause then I don't feel all panicked, and know I'm in control.
It's when I don't have beer in the place that I panic and will make a mad dash to the store, before dark, to buy beer, but if already here, it's easier for me to not drink it.
Phycology I guess.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 23, 2023 11:18:09 GMT
Going on around 5 days free of boozeAnd when I say booze, I mainly mean beer, but ye, around 5 days, and even woke up this morning feeling a bit 'happy' for some odd reason, and for no reason at all. I take a lot of vitamins and eat pretty decent, but if drinking beer all the time, all the beer does is flush it all out. Who knows where this is going. The weight loss part is also exciting, and the thinner face, that comes with less or no drinking. And the body aches begin to go away, the minor yet slight joint pain starts going away. I've been down this road before, but usually in the end, it's loneliness that makes me start drinking again. But for now I'm on a bit of a sober ride, so I'll just see here it takes me this time. 
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 26, 2023 18:48:46 GMT
 Well, 8 days and one bad drinking day on Sunday, but since then, holding up pretty well and energy level coming back. It's crazy. I feel better, nicer, less irritable, and confidence beginning to come back, and I'm actually getting stuff done. 'Oil Change' came up on the 'to do list', and I actually had the physical and mental energy to go get a badly needed oil change at Jiffy Lube'...around 60 bucks, excellent service. How long will this dry spell last? Who knows, but I do know I work tomorrow, so if I do or did drink today, it would be light, well, with me, it's never light. But if I can take this energy with me to work tomorrow, maybe the day won't seem so bad, we shall see. |
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 30, 2023 2:47:08 GMT
I think I'm done with booze for a while
I think I'm done with booze for a while, mainly beer...why?
I don't know, does me no good anymore to drink, and I really have nothing to celebrate, and at this stage in my existence all I'm doing is hurting myself, and no one else.
drinking simply puts me at a disadvantage to compete in a very competitive world.
If I only have self to rely on, how can I rely on self if self always in a drunken stupor on my days off?
I can't, and that's why I need to put booze behind me.
Booze and sauce and chips, and anything else detrimental to my health; we shall see.
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Post by Jupiter on May 14, 2023 1:18:43 GMT
It's Saturday night
It's Saturday night, I worked earlier, a very long drive to Macon, GA and back, and now I'm home, it's quiet and things are still, and more importantly there is no beer in the place.
What I did have, I got rid of today on the way to work, I just set it out in a bag, by some sleezy hotels where vagrants hang out.
For now I'm just done, I just am, I need my wits about me right now, I need my energy, I need my health, and boozing just saps me of all of that.
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Post by Jupiter on May 19, 2023 0:31:37 GMT
I really am done drinking, no booze in place, I'm just sick of the up and down behavior and moods.
Just sick of it.
I'm way happier, way more mentally balanced, without booze anymore.
I just don't need it anymore.
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Post by Jupiter on May 19, 2023 0:33:25 GMT
The only person who can give me my life back is me, by stop drinking.
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Post by Jupiter on May 21, 2023 23:07:21 GMT
Not drinking today, was tempted to earlier though.
(I wonder if adware so intrusive now, that they even follow your key strokes, so that whatever you type about, they stupidly premiere a ad about it?)
Anyways, so far holding out.
A beer would be oh so nice right now, but been down that road a million times before, I can't stop at one.
Then I drink until drunk, super filled with fake energy, call people, tweet, ect, make a fool out of self, and then next day feel like crap.
I need a more positive pattern.
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Post by Jupiter on May 23, 2023 3:20:16 GMT
How do I feel after not drinking in a while, or at least since last Wednesday?
When you don't drink, you're forced to deal with your feelings, and how I feel right now is a bit anxious and upset.
I feel abandoned, forgotten and dismissed by the world and society.
Not because I'm bad, but rather because people don't like competition.
People simply snuff out that which they're intimidated by.
I've spent the majority of my adult life alone and single, and for some reason, now that I'm sober during my off time, I feel a sense of rage building up inside of me towards all those who have abandoned me along the way.
I even feel a bit enraged at people who read this stuff, yet never so much as say 'hello'.
My love for humanity has dropped, as such. Sure, I like some, when around them, it's natural to like those you're in the company with, but when you're in the company of no one for years, decades, who is there to like?
I can never get my younger years back, when should of been raising a family, should been getting loved, and just living a normal life.
But others denied me of that.
I blame religion also, and how religion, like a demonic spell, can and does amplify the arrogance and self centeredness inside of some or many.
Religion changes no one, it simply makes them double down on who they already are.
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But ye, I just feel angry, for some reason, maybe cause I possibly might have met someone, and my biggest fears is that they'll slip away, fall away, like so many others in my life have.
And I just don't feel like being alone anymore.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 4, 2023 10:33:16 GMT
I make bad decisions when on the phone and drunk
When sober, I make better decisions, not perfect ones, but better ones.
But when drunk, I make bold reckless decisions, some of which costs me lots of money, and future regret.
Like I was about to finance a used Dodge Challenger, while over the telephone and drunk, the loan got approved, but for an amount I really cannot afford.
But while drunk, it all seemed good and well, but now that sober, nah.
Why would I want to burden myself with 500.00 a month payments for a car?
Yet when drunk, and on the phone, it made sense.
Being drunk just brings out the Dr Jeckyl side of me, I suppose.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 8, 2023 4:20:38 GMT
I have a very lovely body, and I'm tired of abusing it, from here forth, I declare war on alcohol 
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 1, 2023 5:17:10 GMT
I know one thing for sure, alcohol does contribute to a lot of minor and or major health issues as you age. Some minor ones are just rusty joints, in that alcohol has a corrosive effect on the body. When you drink, a lot, even if just beer, your joints, as in knees, elbows, shoulders, ect, feel more stiff, even your spine. Your body will feel more like a squeeky wooden staircase, and your spine will feel like a rusty hinge.  (find pics like this and more on flckr photo site) Ye, booze just has a bad effect on your, or worse effect on you as you age. When younger, still has bad effect on you, but when younger your body heals quicker. I'm still healthy enough, physically and mentally, where I can stop drinking, then start drinking, and notice these changes to the body. |
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 5, 2023 17:01:48 GMT
It's like I say, or mainly email or text things when drunk, and then spend the next few days hiding from what I said while drunk, and or until drunk again.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 1, 2023 23:30:31 GMT
Well, when tonight is over, I will have made it a week without any booze or beer.
I had to stop this time, cause when in a lot of pain, inflammation of the joints type of pain, and I think drinking had something to do with it.
I think drinking weakens your immune system, and that's all it takes for viruses that are already in us, to gain the upper hand.
But thankfully I'm already in shape, so ust stopped drinking, and made some homemade penicillin, and walla, about back to normal now.
Full of energy, a bit bored, but back to normal health for the most part.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 10, 2023 2:45:33 GMT
I'm realizing it's not so much beer or booze that's bad for us, or people, but rather all the stuff we eat around the bear we drink, that's really what's destroying our health.
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