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Post by Jupiter on May 13, 2015 3:15:16 GMT
 General thoughts about alcohol consumption and the effects it can have on ones life. |
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Post by Jupiter on May 13, 2015 3:16:26 GMT
I find sipping small amounts of wine in the evening cuts down on the urge to drink lots of beer, but ya gotta drink it slow.
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 18, 2015 19:10:42 GMT
Alcohol is a bad place to go when you're lonely and in need of someone to talk to, cause what happens is once buzzed, you'll call someone you know you shouldn't, whom you normally wouldn't, for advice and compatibility, then the next day feel stupid for doing so.
It makes you seem 'weak' for doing so.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 19, 2015 22:39:53 GMT
For one night, I didn't have an evening drink, and woke up the next day, all day, feeling about 5 years younger and totally energized, and this was just one night without drinking.
And once you're reminded of how well you feel without the drugged effects of alcohol, then alcohol becomes the enemy, and that's the key, is rediscovering the old self, the old, real, energized self that was vibrant and loved life, positive and a go getter all before ever started drinking.
Not sure how so many are tricked by alcohol into thinking that once you start, you then need it daily to 'get by'.
So not true.
I enjoyed today for the first time in a long time, woke up around 4:30 am, and never felt tired.
Alcohol is not my friend.
And I look forward to the day when I don't need or want it anymore, not even on the weekends.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 20, 2015 23:42:50 GMT
Sober Boring Friday night
Being sober on a Friday night is boring, very very boring, cause when sober
you can't pretend life is better than what it really is.
When sober, life just looks you dead in the face with a 'as is' glare.
No sparkle, no nothing, just dead hard reality.
Can't run from emotions, or pretend you don't care about anything.
Oh well, maybe I'll clean up...
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 18, 2015 13:54:46 GMT
The stupid things you post on C/L when drunk
The sober you and the drunk you are like two totally different creatures.
When drunk, and lonely, the things you'll post on C/L or other sites is down right embarrassing to your sober side.
Sometimes you even forget you posted something, then check email days later and get odd response and are like 'D'oh!, as you rush to remove add before further embarrassment, just to put it back up when drunk again...D'oh!
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 17, 2016 10:59:55 GMT
If, when, I do drink, I prefer doing so in the morning, vs evening
On weekends, I tend to prefer drinking in the morning, vs evening.
For one the chance of getting in trouble is greatly reduced, I mean nothing like sitting on porch, having a few, as sun rises.
So quiet, so still.
And since no clubs to go to, no one to impress, it's a totally personal experience.
Social drinking is dangerous, but doing so on on porch, in early morning, way less risky, and just a personal experience.
Then an hour later, effects gone, and have whole rest of day to do things, assuming it's the weekend.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 9, 2016 23:17:51 GMT
If you have to be or get drunk, in order to call someone, than they're probably not your friend or 'good for you'.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 29, 2021 3:05:15 GMT
Nothing scarier than the following Nothing more scarier, than say if had a few drinks, and simply driving up to corner store, and right as you pass intersection a cop randomly pulls right behind you.  Yes yes, of course should not drive if have alcohol in system, but we all know many do anyways. And nothing more fearful than cop rolling up behind you, cause you feel like 'Oh no, what if brake light out, what if whatever', anything to give officer reason to turn on their lights, but luckly, most of the time, as long as driving safe, cop just passes you right on by.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 29, 2021 3:08:01 GMT
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 22, 2021 6:33:59 GMT
The battle never seems to stop
I sometimes dread the day I ever started drinking beer again, and sometimes I don't.
Some of the things I did, places I went, people I shortly met, encounters I had, art I conjured up, and so forth, was do to drinking, and if I hadn't been drinking, I doubt any of it would of came about.
On the other hand, had I not started drinking, I'd might be way further along in any particular career, that do to drinking, I slothed it off, the effort that is, to maybe of taken classes when a bit younger, or applied myself to this or that, cause instead drinking, while off work, on the weekends, was all I wanted to do to 'escape'.
I just do not know, fate is odd like that, I could have made worse decisions had I not been drinking, you just never know, again fate is odd like that.
I mean I'm still here now, in OK health, maybe if didn't drink, would of gotten in an accident or gotten in a rotten relationship, you just never know.
I would of developed into a different person though that's for sure.
And probably a few 'phone fits', and or 'online fits' I wouldn't of gone off on if not drunk at the time.
But I'm still here.
Maybe even this whole forum would not be here, had I not started drinking, but maybe instead a loving relationship would of replaced it, again, you just never know, only fate knows.
And for whatever reason, fate still has me here regardless of my drinking on the side.
That being said, I still need to cut back, I'm older now, and cannot drink as if in college still (When college aged though, oddly enough, I did not drink).
Anyways, let's see what fate has in store for me after I post this.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 6, 2021 16:23:53 GMT
I've been sober now for about 12 days or so or 11, and have been logging experience elsewhere as well.
So may be gaps.
But here's what I'm noticing so far this morning as far as mood goes.
1. Social media doesn't seem near as important to me as it did when I was drinking all the time.
Not sure what that means other than when drinking, tended to embelish self with self importance, meaning I guess I convinced self that my tweets mattered, that what I expressed mattered, even though expressing it to strangers, hostile strangers at times even.
Now that sober, it just doesn't mean as much to me anymore, seems very small, minute, as if being sober has released me from a social media spell.
Twitter, I mean think about it, tweets, that get buried and forgotten seconds after posted, onto the next tweet, which is agitating news headlines, violent crime news, and then peoples opinion...over and over again, nothing gained, lots of time lost.
To me, now that sober, it's as useless as playing some board game like 'Yatzy' or something
But yet when drinking or when drunk, provided the perfect platform for outburst that I needed, since had no one else to listen.
But now that sober, twitter just seems awfully small to me, I mean really, if it's not earning me money than what's the point?, is how I feel now.
but aside from twitter, social media, like today, I just feel unfocused, I don't feel driven at all, I thought by not drinking I'd feel more driven, not less.
But again, it's only been 11 days, I'm sure bodies going through all sorts of adjustments, mental, physical, phycological and more.
I'm just not sure what to do with this current mental state I'm in, I mean I have energy, but don't feel driven or anxious to do anything or get anything done, but when drunk I did, or while drinking anyways...very odd.
The only ways to snap myself out of this 'lull', is to create a 'to do list', and simply force self into activity by randomly choosing to do stuff on that list.
More updates to follow.
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 10, 2022 12:59:38 GMT
Alcohol and getting ahead, just don't mix well with me.
I can't drink, and then expect to stay motivated to do things I need to do to get ahead in life, I just can't.
When I start drinking, again, when off from work, I just notice if start drinking, than it just becomes a dominating factor in my mood, moral and more.
It just kills all motivation to get anything meaningful done for self.
Cause the drinking part is just one phase, the so called happy phase, but that happy phase is followed by the aftereffects, which can vary depending on your health.
The aftereffects or hang over effects, can linger on for a day or more, and that's what saps you of your moral and energy, and time.
It basically turns you into a lazy bum, where you sit around and dream, and wish, but never actually accomplish.
Thankfully I'm healthy enough still of mind and body (even went out to park and exercised yesterday), where I can self-evaluate.
It's when you don't, won't, or can no longer, self-evaluate, is when the battle is lost.
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 24, 2022 23:37:46 GMT
 Who am I if I'm not drinking or drunk? Lately I'm trying to figure that out. Don't get me wrong, I like my drunk side, the problem is if keep drinking heavily soon something will give, and it's usually your health. Wish I could get 'high' instead, if I were rich and lived in a large Mansion could do whatever I wanted to. Think of all the things multi-millionaires and billionaires do behind closed walls. Anyways, not sure who or what I am right now. I just don't know right now. |
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Post by Jupiter on Feb 5, 2022 14:03:05 GMT
I've been without a drink for well over a week now.
I've lost around 5 solid pounds, can't say I feel any better though, I mean my moral still feels like it's in the gutter.
Probably cause of other issues, a side medical issue I've been dealing with, if it's not one thing it's another.
Pain is very distracting, so ye, by not drinking I have more sustained energy but then that's been off set by a side medical issue.
And I'm sure when that's resolved, then something else will occur that will be a pain in my life.
Issues never stop, but one day we do stop.
Sometimes I'm just not sure what keeps me going anymore.
I guess hope, we're just programmed to always hope and think and feel that things will get better.
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