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Post by Jupiter on Aug 14, 2023 18:35:34 GMT
Just threw like 6 cans of beer in the water inlet, let a fisherman find it, or a shark eat it and get drunk, but I for one don't need beer, or any alcohol in my place right now.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 29, 2023 1:43:48 GMT
I think the devil is going to own me for the rest of the day, cause I drank to much yesterday, and recovery is slow I just can't seem to recover quick enough, spent all day in and out of bed, watching movies. I thought at least by now I'd be back to old self, nope, still have that yuk, deadened soul after drinking feeling, probably cause I drank liquor for the first time in a while, and not a lot either. Oh well, I did it to myself, now I must lay in the bed I made. It's Monday.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 12, 2023 15:35:32 GMT
Seems sometimes alcohol is the only thing that can snap me out of a somber mood, but then after drinking, of course, the somber mood and outlook comes back.
I think love and having strong relationships can fix what booze cannot, but that's easier said than done.
Many people live isolated lonely lives these days.
You can't just order up friends, like French fries.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 8, 2023 13:27:51 GMT
I just feel like starting the day off drinking.
First day off in 3, and well, I just don't feel so spirited about anything right now.
My long term plans aren't going as expected, so all I really have of now is 'today', or the moment, but I really don't have the future.
Not sure why I feel worse on the morning of my day off than I did the 3 previous days that I worked.
Phycology of the mind is just odd.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 8, 2023 16:10:18 GMT
I still drink Bud Light, I could give a whatever  I still drink Bud Light, (actually was never a Bud Light type, but occasionally drink it now when only beer available) Dillan M, means nothing to me, and in no way shape or form affects my drinking habits. I don't care if they're gay, or faking like they're gay or trans...or cross dresser, or Hindu, none of it affects me...so i continue to drink whatever beer I feel like drinking, regardless who are what is on the cover... I'm not that thin skinned like muffin Rock is...
What a immoral sissy punk muffin Rock is in this video, what happened to them??
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 9, 2023 22:28:01 GMT
It's like my body just steps in for me now, in that like today, I wanted to drink till drunk, but body just wasn't having it.
I drank last night, and like today, when tried drinking, just wasn't into it, as if body just said 'nope, no more beer for a while'.
Prior to yesterday, I hadn't had a beer or drink since Wednesday of last week.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 10, 2023 0:19:15 GMT
Not sure why I always think I can't have as much fun, when alone, unless I'm drunk.
It's dark out now, I failed to get anymore beer, and usually don't go out once it's dark...tempted to though, that way tomorrow I can stay home all day cause the beer will already be here if decide to have a few...
I just may run up to the store, and check lotto ticket while there, although there was no big winner.
One time I bought $100.00 worth of tickets off of another lottery winning, and won absolutely nothing, or maybe a few bucks.
That odds game is incredible, but if don't play, it's even worse, the odds that you won't win.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 18, 2023 1:37:04 GMT
There comes a time when self-love will step in and save you from yourself When it comes to destroying your health, either through drinking, substance abuse, or even overeating or eating poorly, when all else fails, if wired right, then usually self-love will step in and save the day, but self-love can be complex, cause often times that self-love depends on who's in your life, or who you want to impress and or not disappoint. If alone, and without hope, than sometimes self-love can be slow to kick in. With me, I don't know if it's so much self-love or me not wanting to let someone down whom I'll be visiting soon, in that I have to be, want to be, at my mental and physical best....and I can't be that if drinking up until the last minute I'm do to visit. Drinking actually makes you look uglier, ya know? Drinking makes your face 'fat', or fatter, and pudgy looking, and skin not as smooth. Anyways, I had enough self-love to stop drinking for the day, or night, just didn't feel right. No longer sure if things will ever work out right, not sure if we were all meant for a fairytale life or ending, probably most of us weren't. And with that being said, happy October, and yes, Halloween is right around the corner.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 18, 2023 1:50:27 GMT
Well, since not drinking, or getting drunk, how can I entertain self for rest of the night before bed?
Maybe a movie...
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 25, 2023 4:17:41 GMT
Even though I've been drinking, I feel better than I should right now I feel better than I should, considering I've been guzzling down beer the last two days. I'm just glad I get so many days off in a row. I don't even care about getting rich anymore through my labor, only fools labor for riches these days. Most get rich now through 1. Large salaries 2. Lawsuits 3. Lottery 4. big tech (high salaries) 5. Money laundering (politicians) 6. Theft (politicians)(tech criminals)(street criminals) And on and on...but no one gets rich anymore through hourly wage jobs, that's so 1950's. ------------------------------ Anyways, every day, in the online paper, celebrities are passing away. Everyone is passing away, but only celebrities get mentioned, and many of them are younger than me, which makes me feel, at times, that I'm really living on borrowed time. I drink, sure, but just mainly beer, but I don't do drugs, and I don't take medications, and I wasn't dumb enough to get the covid shot. And I try to eat healthy, I exercise, and try to avoid stress. But sooner or later a storms coming, we all have a personal storm approaching and cannot avoid it.Is why I'm not OK with 'dull' moments in my life, or even boredom, cause I know there's coming a time when I won't be able to relax they way I do now. --------------------------- About to drop all my streaming services, I never watch Disney or Hulu or barely prime anymore...could save maybe 40 a month? And since more movies have ads in them, I'd rather just out and right buy the movie than put up with sickening politically correct ads. All commercials do now is jab at your sensibilities, it's how the world intrudes in on your private movie viewing moments. Anyways, no need in me writing a book, let me wrap this post up.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 28, 2023 3:57:25 GMT
I know one thing for sure, when drunk I sure do see myself differently than when sober, my gosh, what was I thinking here??  I need to change the kind of beer I drink, or better yet, not drink at all...wow..
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 4, 2023 13:48:53 GMT
Today, I will probably have a few drinks just to calm my nerves, I mean when alone, how else shall I calm my nerves?...pray?
Praying only works, at least for me, when have a larger support system of loving, caring, people around you, otherwise it becomes just like talking to thin air.
I don't know.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 16, 2023 4:22:45 GMT
I'm really starting to hate myself when I get drunk, and call people, and say or express the most stupid things, things I really don't mean or can't back up.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 17, 2023 17:36:03 GMT
How come I can seem bored as hell, but then drink a few beers, then suddenly 100 things to do enter my mind??..  |
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 19, 2023 3:35:14 GMT
I notice that drinking slower, is better for someone like me.
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