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Post by Jupiter on Sept 10, 2024 1:51:19 GMT
What a weird feeling day for me.Felt more like a dream, or dreamy. Had a zoom meeting earlier...couldn't see them but they could see me. (for a school) After that, I just don't know...got call from a man who's suppose to be my film school mentor...so I'll be going into their place tomorrow, as such i didn't drink today....cause when I drink, the next day I just don't feel like doing anything other than recovering. I think my going in will help them more than it will help me...the course is pretty much over...and all they're going to do is go over stuff with me, that I'm done with....maybe out of guilt, cause they weren't the best mentor to have, practically ignored me the whole time I was there. Anyways, I dread getting up, out, and driving across town if it's just going to waste my time. Turns out I'm usually the one giving them emotional therapy, instead of them just staying focused and teaching me stuff I don't already know. 3 hours is the max, after that, the day will be mine...I don't like being up in that stuffy studio. ============================  After this, will lay down for a bit and just _____ with myself, why not, I have no one else to play with...
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 11, 2024 4:36:54 GMT
Jimmie deserves a section all to himself... This is kind of a old lost one from the vault, a song by Jimmie Hendrix that was used in the cult classic 'Easy Rider'... As the bikers ride into, and through a old south southern town... It's total art...and totally captures the contrast of the day between hippie cowboy types and the old southern guard culture...excellent video and song... And in it you'll see a very young Jack Nickelson, back when he was first starting off, and of course he to went on to become a legend in his on wright...  Note, this post actually from 2013 from another blog forum of this same family...wow 2013.... |
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 20, 2024 1:56:52 GMT
Today has been a total bust, to late to save it Today has been a total bust, and it's to late to save it. It's all about the mood. I did get in a decent workout though, but that's it. Got in a text argument with my ____ last night while drinking, that sure hasn't helped my mood any. Apologizing means nothing to people, forgiveness is more powerful than apologizing. for if you apologize to someone who's incapable of forgiving you, than what's the point, just save yourself the humiliation. --------------------------------- Anyways, I sit here, late at night, in some kind of a self-imposed mental dead zone.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 20, 2024 4:53:59 GMT
Not the best day today (or I should say yesterday)
But the sadness from yesterday is creeping into today.
But hey, at least I wasn't one of those Hezbolla guys who got their bodies are torn to pieces by bombs Israel put inside of pagers...well, more like battery bombs.
Pretty cruel actually, now many will be maimed for life...and their family members will never ever forget it, ever.
I think now's a very dangerous time to be openly Jewish anywhere.
But I'd still rather be a Jewish person who looks or could pass for white, than a black person who automatically just gets down graded by everyone and all societies simply do to racial features.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 20, 2024 4:55:08 GMT
Firefox browser vs Microsoft browser, night and day
Microsoft browser = endless ads gumming up your browser and computer speed.
Firefox browser = faster computer, cause computer not all gummed up with adware.
I had both browsers open, computer acting all sluggish.
As soon as I closed the Microsoft browser and just used Firefox browser, speed instantly picked up.
Isn't that something?
I mean think about there.
Bottom line, if you want less stuff, ads, google, gumming up your computer, than use the Firefox browser.
None of them give you complete privacy, but some are better than others at it.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 22, 2024 17:45:56 GMT
Today, at least for a while, I'm going into military mode.
What do I mean by that?
Well, when in Navy boot camp, I learned quick the meaning of military efficiency, and I learned quick that while in boot camp, if pressed, you could get more done in 1 hour than most do in a day....and if you didn't, the penalty was high.
It was all about efficiency, no excuses and managing your time, and demanding the most out of your body and mind.
Great tools for life outside of the military, but eventually we, I, forgot those lessons, or no longer needed to be so intense.
However, there comes times in our lives when we do, when we need to put ourselves through our own interpersonal boot camps to get our acts together, and today is one of those days for me.
I'm weeks behind on personal stuff, resume, 'movie pitch', appointments, house cleaning and more.
No more lagging, it's time to get busy.
Because the lazy and complacency bug is finally starting to catch up with me, and it's not looking so attractive.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 26, 2024 17:45:56 GMT
Oh gosh, today is here, and already slapping me all in the face...reality is slapping me all in the face today in regards to decisions I have to make that effect my future and finances.
History shows that regardless of what I decide, it will be the wrong choice and won't work out, regardless of my good intentions, or hopes or desires...my own personal history just favors utter disaster...played out in slow motion.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 21, 2024 19:36:01 GMT
 Monday's here, and near almost already gone. I slept in late, as usual. Haven't done a dern thing yet today other than workout...as usual. But you have to keep fit, even if life is seemingly falling apart around you, you have to stay fit through it all, cause at least with me, if you fall, not a soul on this whole wide planet will ever ever help you stand back up again...I mean absolutely no one....not a solitary soul. Anyways, what now? A call maybe? Waste of time...anyone can listen, very few ever help. It's Monday. |
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 24, 2024 21:40:30 GMT
I need to go get some Halloween stuff to perk up the season I need some Halloween stuff to help perk up my favorite season of the year. No one celebrates Halloween in the ghetto, but that doesn't mean I can't.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 24, 2024 21:56:10 GMT
Was going to go get some Halloween decorations, but then lost motivation before I could even finish getting dressed and grooming myself.
That's what drinking does to you, it kills your motivation.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 24, 2024 22:15:13 GMT
Screw it, I'm dressed now, groomed, so may as well go to the store, but no Halloween stuff.
Walmart is to much for me right now.
Going to Walmart is like going to an event...all the walking, the parking, the stress of checking out.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 29, 2024 6:06:57 GMT
I think it's about time for bed, or at least to lay down in bed Yeah, it's about time for bed, after around 2 am I stop being constructive and just start spacing off. Time has really been moving way to fast as of late. It's no secret that I don't like time anymore, time is not good to me anymore, hasn't been good to me for over a decade, or even longer than that. Is why I don't rush to do anything anymore, but maybe I should so I could get more out of time. ------------------------------------ Halloween will be here in days, I have no decorations or anything, shame on me...shame shame shame. But me, I'm so weird, I'm the type that will hang Halloween stuff up long after the season is over. Maybe I'll get some stuff tomorrow. Anyways, it's about time for me to transition to the bed now, and watch a few movies before fading off. I rarely watch a movie in one sitting, I usually divide movies up into 3-10 minute segments, like a TV show or something. Later and out and happy Halloween.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 31, 2024 19:09:17 GMT
It's Halloween It's Halloween!It's been a few days since checked in here. I just woke up from a deep mid afternoon nap, I mean deep, so deep I dreamed.Guys wrestling, high-school or dormitory cafeteria type of settings, like a bunch of different past dreams all merging together. Even dreamed of some older upper classmates from both K-12 to an academy I went to once later in life. All these settings and characters just all kind of merged into one. Guys, white guys, younger ones, wrestling and getting mad at one another when one got hurt. Their white bright clean feets stood out to me on the mat. Homeless people, mentally ill people, were also within this odd super dormitory type of structure. Oh well, I'm awake now, and my real life is no where near that dynamic or exciting. Just the opposite, and a lot of uncertainty is looming around me right now. --------------------------------- Yesterday I drank, like a fool, and I think I'm still feeling it today in a strange way. Went to Walmart earlier to get some Halloween stuff, forget it, 50% off of what was left, and the isles were cleared and the women were flocking over what was left...what a waste of my time this morning going there twice...yes twice, cause when there the first time I forgot my wallet, drove back home, back to Walmart just for them to not have anything...what a waste. Then drove to 7 Eleven and got some backed chicken in the deli and a slice of pizza....came home, looked at some pretty W male young feet, and took a nap...lol. I like things that are soft and pretty, could care the less what gender they are. Not all women are soft and pretty to me, some, as they age, morph into things I don't even recognizes...at least not my sexuality or what's left of it. I look better to myself than even some older when do to me, sucks to be me in that aspect. -------------------------------- Anyhow, up now, I feel drugged or something, maybe the food I ate? Our foods are heavily responsible for our moods, after all we are what we eat, literally. We're made up of what we eat and nothing else. And with that, will wrap up this first extensive Halloween post on here and the last day of Oct 24th, 2004.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 4, 2024 19:58:33 GMT
The primary person getting in the way of my own success is me.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 4, 2024 20:02:14 GMT
I tried to join FB, again, but this time for business, and they were like 'You must sign up using your phone'...why?
Many people, especially older people, have bad vision, and sorry, I don't do social media over tiny phones, expecially not a business where I can't see anything.
I'm not a phone generation type, I hate doing anything over a small phone that can barely see the content.
They just want you to do that so they can track your azz, see where you go.
Tech people are some of the most evil people on the planet.
Anything and everything for a buck.
They're as bad as P-Diddy, if you ask me...they just exploit people in less obvious ways.
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