Lifes Journal

It's all about 'moods'

And right now, the mood I'm in makes me feel like I'm being 'muted' from others, from life.

It's probably been like that for years, but my moods didn't care, but current mood has me thinking about it at the moment.

Muted, think about that, muted is like screaming behind a curtain or wall yet no one hears.

But worse than that, what if someone or a power, ect, deliberately trying to mute you, then what?

Almost like being shadow banned on social media, it would be better if they just told you, but the cruel thing is is they don't, so you think you're being heard yet are not.

And the rotten thing is is the person or people doing it to you never reveal who they are, it's the same as people wanting you dead, but they stay just outside of your 'reach', so again you never know who they are, you can only speculate.

Then mind starts playing with you, and of course that goes no where.

Again, it's all about 'moods', is why really got to guard your mood or your mood will take you or be lured down irrational places or maybe rational ones, but if there's nothing you can do about it, why focus on it?

I need to guide my mood back to things I can see and control, not things I can't see and can't control.

And people, at least on social media, don't listen to each other anymore, it's funny how both the political left and political right both think that Face Book is against them, and for the other side.

So the left thinks FB helps out conservatives and conservatives swear up and down that FB censors them (and there's proof of that though for sure), but what I'm saying is both side have no idea the other side feels slated by FB, and I find that odd how isolated people, at least on social media, are within their own little political camps.

Me, I cross barriers and walls, which allows me to listen to all sides.

NPR, national public radio, they have on guests who all have the same political leaning, how do you learn from that?

But to them that's just normal now, to only have one side or view, is actually normal now to NPR and certain other cable networks.

It just makes humans seem more and more puny to me with each and every passing day.

And I just want to watch a old fashion movie or something without being disturbed by commercialism, is why will try to hook old fashion DVD player back up to flat screen TV, cause so sick of streaming, or like on YT 'Free with commercials', enough already.
Technology in and of itself is fine, but then when you add mans evil ways to it, it just has become another tool of 'the devil', metaphorical or not, it's like billionaire lunatics are literally running the world now, they do think they're gods, and can set policies for others, can buy out politicians, who no longer wanna do the right thing, politicians have just become lying snakes now, will say anything their donors tell them to say.

They've all made money their god, and when you do that, bad things happen..

Sometimes you wake up and already feel utterly defeated by the other side of yourself

I'm still here, been busy with other things, creative stuff.

Yes, still here, my writings go in cycles, high cycles, low cycles, like seasons.

When other outlets of expression open up more, I write less.

But right now, I'm here.

Seems the more days I get off in a row, the less I want to go back to work.

Work seems pointless to me right now, a mindless income generating exercise.

It's not like I'm getting rich, like most, simply earning enough to stay a few months or weeks away from nothing.