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Post by Jupiter on Aug 2, 2023 18:42:15 GMT
Finally got new keypad Well, I finally got a new keyboard, and now I can hit the letter 'J' again, cause the J key was down on laptop, and it was a pain trying to make it work. Anywhow, it's Tuesday. Oh, and I got a older type of keyboard, like from the early 2000's, you know, with keypads that are bigger and bulkier...why? I don't know? Maybe soon I'll order another one with back lit lights for nighttime typing. Other than that, just taking care of all kinds of boring, but must get done type of stuff today, and usually 'must get done' stuff means spending money, as in rent, and other 'due now' type of bills. I haven't had a drink in about 7.5 days, and feeling pretty chummy, lots of energy and decent health, is usually when I convince self that 'Ahh, what will one beer hurt?'...and that's when slow slide to drinking begins again. So I'm hoping I can stay dry all day and night, cause I work tomorrow for 3 days in a row, and I don't drink on days/nights where I'm scheduled to work, so by the time Sunday rolls around I will have gone over 10 without a drink...oh well, we'll see. If I drink I drink, gonna die anyways one day. All that aside, liking this new keyboard.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 31, 2023 2:19:03 GMT
Boring Wednesday  What a day, internal battles with self. That aside, I like have some strange cat creator our or near back balcony steps, and it makes sounds like some alien. That aside, I have to work tomorrow coming off of 4 days off. I lost, I really did lose. I abused self in ways I can't explain on here. That aside, as long as alive, life keeps dragging you along. Well, can either be dragged or stand, I suppose. It's Wednesday.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 4, 2023 19:39:54 GMT
It's Wednesday It's Wednesday and well, I feel as tore up by life as depicted in the above gif. What else can I say? Life just sucks at times, and usually evolves around not having enough fiscal resources, regardless of your good intent. Without plenty of fiscal resources, your dreams, intent, wishes, ect, just don't get very far.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 12, 2023 3:53:54 GMT
Just a few minutes left on this October Wednesday night  It's about 15 minutes till midnight, then the day is gone, forever, never to be lived again, read about, but never lived again. __________________ October doesn't feel as fun to me as it used to, I think, know, it depends on who your neighbors are. I live around very culturally dull, urban types who never celebrate or get into Halloween. I mean with all these different cultures pouring into America, so many European traditions are dying off, and whether white, black, or Hispanic or other, we've all grown up with those traditions, if over a certain age. But black folks, at least where I live, just aren't into stuff like Halloween, all they're into is rap music, and blunts. I think if I had to live in a nation without whites, I'd go nuts, even though not white myself. I just don't know if other cultures know how to have fun like whites used to. The America of the 70's, 80's, 90's, is just dying and fading away. --------------------- Anyways, it's Wednesday still, 7 more minutes and the day is gone, but I'll still be here.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 25, 2023 20:32:08 GMT
Yep, it's Wednesday for sure  Yep, it's Wednesday, and tomorrow I have to work, after being off for 4 days, so what, I could never go back to work and could care the less.... I mean am I suppose to feel good about working just to always be near broke?..huh?...what an old 1950's concept. And I never volunteer to work during my scheduled off time, cause I hate my job. I like those I work for, but I actually hate the job environment. I'm just burned out, older, and at a stage of my life where performing mindless, meaningless, repetitive work annoys and depresses me. In fact, most American are fed up with that type of work, and is why the flood gates to immigration are wide open = future cheap labor, I suppose. Anyhow, enough about that, It's Wednesday, I got to sleep in today, and still have a few hours of free time, and believe me you I will cherish and enjoy it.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 1, 2023 23:40:06 GMT
Yes, I know Halloween is over  Ahh, about to go prepare some lunch for tomorrow, which is basically fruit slices. When at home, and eat home cooked stuff, health always so good, even if I drink, health is just good, but seems the minute I go out into the world, as in my job, and buy deli stuff, or anything not prepared by me, than that's when I start getting the sniffles, or ect. Nothing beats home cooked meals, lunches; but that being said, it's easy to get lured into the flavor of chips, sweets, fried deli, ect. Anyways, I need a hug right now, cause the next 11 days will be, well, just challenging, first work then travel...lord have mercy.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 15, 2023 21:04:39 GMT
It's Wednesday, I'm here, what else can I say...  I'm here, haven't worked in a while, took a trip out west, now I'm back and, well...I'm here. Ugg. Is life ever going to get better?
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 20, 2023 16:44:27 GMT
It's Wednesday Woke up early, then laid back down, now up again, wow, what a sloshy day; and I need to get up, out and do some grocery shopping, yuk. Grocery shopping isn't fun anymore, do to prices, and well, it's just not fun anymore, feels more like a chore. When younger, grocery shopping made me feel independent, 'Cool, I get to buy my own food, oh how cool'... I still wish I were young and dumb still, seems being dumb just makes you happier. Anyways, it's Wednesday, off today, work tomorrow, yuk. Have to make a decision here soon.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 21, 2023 0:40:43 GMT
Still Wednesday, Dec 20th 2023 It's still Wednesday and I'm still a smuck. About to check checking account balance, something I rarely do since it never grows, so to me it's like looking in the fridge over and over again expecting to find something new. No matter how many times I look in on my checking account, I'm still a poor working class smuck. Although it's good to look in often to mainly make sure you're not getting ripped off, is why I'm about to look at mine, but no doubt, I'll be more depressed after viewing it.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 21, 2023 1:47:35 GMT
This video deserves an award, in my opinion
This video deserves an award because it's certainly how I'm feeling right now, for sure...
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 24, 2024 13:01:21 GMT
It's Wednesday, so what.It's Wednesday, and well, not sure how to feel about my life right now, or whatever future I have left down here on earth. Actually, once you get away from earth, not sure if there's such a thing as up or down in space. Anyways, the days here, and I'm sure I'll waste it away like I've done the previous 4 days. But when trying to save money, sitting still helps you to do that. I've drank beer every day...beer will be my downfall, but only love and purpose can cure you of such vices. Anyways, will get started on meaningless 'to do list', just to keep myself from staring at the walls and spacing out. News - Trump one the GOP nomination, but that's no surprise. I don't like the mans personality when he's campaigning, but his policies, once he's in office, I don't mind so much. Other news - Nothing that effects me...
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 10, 2024 14:42:05 GMT
I think it's Wednesday
Things are changing quick.
I'm about to go from the world of obscure online writing, to the world of real life production projects on real sets, and working with a real life industry pro/veteran.
I'm paying for it though (stupid me).
As such, I have to change a lot of my mental habits, as well as physical ones.
For one, no more drinking.
Drinking, at least for me, totally hampers my enthusiasm for anything, and totally messes up my moods, especially the morning after you drink, and during the whole day sometimes.
And I'll start having to utilize my time way way way better, no more vain 'to do lists', that have me doing things that don't matter for squat.
And I'm going to start getting back into near athlete shape, for my own sake, cause I'm going to need all the energy I can get, to get through this phase of my life.
I'm like doing a total life change, and not sure how to feel about it right now.
It's one thing to wish for things, and change, when you're drunk, its another thing to actually execute those changes when given the chance, and then you have other evaluating you as well = pressure = accountability.
Anyways, time to get started on stuff, no more ducking away from unpleasant tasks.
Time will tell if I'm up for the task or if I'm just a big bluffer to myself and or others.
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 24, 2024 19:45:55 GMT
Wednesday moments Just got back from... 1. Washing vehicle cost = $3.00 2. KFC = $14.00 3. DD discount store = $20-$30.00 Not counting fuel. I could of stayed home and spent nothing, but while alive and have energy, just staying cooped up in house all day can drive you nuts, and it should. But here, once I do go out, in this area at least, not much to keep me out, so I end up coming back home pretty quick. ------------------------------- What are my plans for the rest of the day? To stay alive, I guess, and study film stuff, clean, write, just stuff someone with no life would do. It's Wednesday.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 11, 2024 18:34:46 GMT
Wednesday thoughts It's been a while since posted on here, just the luck of the roll, or dice. I've been posting on other blog posts instead. That aside, ugg, I drank last night, gross...and made a fool of myself on the phone and through texting. When I get drunk, I, I just lose it emotionally at times, mainly out of loneliness. I think if I were in a committed relationship, that side of myself would fade, but when lonely, oh well, what are you supposed to do? There is no cure for loneliness other than to not be lonely. ------------------------ I've spent most of they day in bed so far, just _____ with myself, and that's about it...but finally ______, so now what?? Anyways, maybe I can salvage what's left of the day. Kitchen light switch broke, oven don't work right, a/c unit fan stay on until I turn breaker switch off. I was doing so well a few days ago, in great shape, working out daily, then booze started slipping back into my life. I need to get back on track, it's not to late, just a matter of will power and choices. Still gotta wrap up film school stuff, resume, cover letter, synopsis and a few other things. Today, I feel like I'm covered in stupidity goo, just dripping in stupidity goo. Oh well, won't be the last time. Time to recover, may get dressed and force myself to exercise, even though it's drzzling out.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 3, 2024 15:27:19 GMT
I think today is Wednesday I think today's Wednesday. Slept in late as usual, and well, my future, that's another story, mess. Lot's going on in the world right now, floods, wars, union port strikes...but none of it affects me right now. Just microwaved and ate some left over lamb meat. My fridge is crammed with food...I don't eat like I used to. I remember about 3 years ago would spend at least 100 dollars on food, not anymore...but then again I'm not working. Working makes you hungry. Actually, since not working, I'm actually getting in better shape and health... When I work, the job wears me out mentally to much to want to workout...is why I dread going back to a normal driving type of job...or any mind numbing labor type of job. My future is very uncertain right now and when it changes, will change suddenly...one minute I'll be living in relative comfort, the next minute, gone, outta here, maybe in some old used RV...talk about a life change. Oh well, it's do that or continue to be a slave to rent and dump 1000+ dollars a month on living expenses. Being poor really does suck...yes indeed it does. It's Wednesday, I think.
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