Lifes Journal

Yes, could go out tonight

Yes, could go out tonight, right now in fact, would be more fun and interactive than typing on here.

Hmm.

Why don't I?

I don't know.

I really don't know, maybe going out is sad, hearing all the fake, false, stories that people tell to feel needed.

Every day hair acts, behaves and looks different, just makes no sense!

Every day hair acts, behaves and looks different, just makes no sense, even when do nothing with it, seems one night of bed, sleeping changes dynamic of hair.

One day hair is limp, seems dead, then wake up next morning and seems to spring to life again just from rolling around at night on pillow, makes no sense.

One day compelled to just cut it all off, then next day hair 'behaves, and no longer want to cut it all off, makes no sense.

One day hair is bouncy, vibrant, then next morning limp and dry...why?

Is it the humidity in air?, what you eat?

I don't know, but do no have interview later today and have to decide what to do with hair.

Recently I just got the kind of job, with long hours, that when you come home, you're just to tired and drained to give a dam about anything political, or social, or ect.

Just get home and want to sit, with a blank mind.

Such a job even makes you stop caring about social media.

I come home and just feel empty, sure making more money now, but still feel empty on the inside when off work.

Money irons out a lot of wrinkles in life, period

When I'm behind on bills, a payment, I don't even bother calling anymore, cause all they do is annoy.

Bottom line is whether dead or alive, all people, agencies, companies you owe, want from you is 'dough', money.

Well I now can pay them their money again, got job that pays well, as long as I can endure it.

Money solves everything here on Earth.

I know Preachers love Preaching about Jesus and this and that and this bible verse and so forth, but these preachers aren't out in the hot sun, hot baking sun, laboring.

Their issues aren't mine.

These rich Pastors may not need money, cause they're not laboring in hot sun, but I do, and others, who want to at least enjoy some years of life in comfort.

It's my body out there laboring, not there's, then on Sunday, Saturday or the Sabbath, want me to give blood and sweat labor earning to their cause, which might not be my own cause.

I don't know.

So very few understand the labor class, what it's like to actually physically labor for a living.

Then at end of shift, day, when go into store get disrespected cause not wearing designer clothing.

Anyways, tired, time for bed, just wanted to sneak in this post before working another 18 hour day tomorrow.

Bills

If broke or near broke and have choice to feed self, family or pet, self family or pet will come before billion dollar bank or card or department store chain.

Corporations are not your friend, for the minute can't pay a bill do to hardship, they want to cut your throat, gangsters on the streets have more mercy on you than credit card companies, or loan agencies if late on a payment do to hardship.

Nough said, will finish this thought later...

I'm a non white minority, and never bothered by police, why is that?



I'm a non white minority, and never bothered by the police, why is that??

Some would even say I was 'B'...yet still never bothered by the police, again why not?

That tells me, if using self as own experiment, that Police focus always on behavior first, and or style and not color.

And or (and never forget this fact) many times police respond to other peoples 'calls to 911', often times when people call into 911 they 'exagerate' in order to get a quicker police response.

(That's not cops fault, in that if 911 caller says 'Black man has a gun', cops show up, often, believing what dispatch tells them)

But all that aside, as a 'B' dude, person of color, or whatever you'd like me to be, the Police never harass me.

Again, that tells me cops focus in on behavior, or social styles, not color.

As a good person, one who abides by the law, best I can, I just do not go around fearing the police, cause never put self in situation to fear the police.

I don't 'project' any kind of image, I suppose, that would make cops suspicious, and even when I do, still not bothered by the police simply cause I do not break the law.

If Police were all racist, or better yet if police all acted on racist impulses (we all have inside of us) I'd of been jailed long ago for nothing.

I'm not a 'fan' of all police methods, that being said, but do feel it important to share that Cops generally 99% of the time or more, leave me alone when acting and behaving like a civil human being.

Cops, the Police, even Sheriffs, when encounter on the streets, generally find me to be a loving, goofy, happy go lucky type of soul, and sometimes even make them laugh.

I wasn't raised in 'Da' hood' and as such don't have any type of hood sway or mannerisms, as such cops relate to me as if just another square, nerdy 'white dude' I suppose.

But again that tells me cops, like all people, generally relate to your behavior, and not color (unless hardcore secularist racist or Islamist)

I'm certain North Korean police are far more racist than 'white' American police.

Everyone in jail/prison, hurt someone to get there...as such I'm not now, or ever, trying to be a activist for criminals who hurt others in the past, present and future.



I don't fight for criminals, rather I fight for those who are good and decent, who sometimes get caught up in system.

But just not fighting for people who have no moral code, able to destroy another life and think nothing of it, able to steal, rob, brutalize, and think nothing of it, now suddenly once in a cage are suppose to be noble?...NOT.

Police actually keep criminals safe, for without the police, there'd probably be a 'purge', no mercy, no jury, just an all out purge by angry armed men, scared women, of all stripes, who just want to live in a safe society.