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Post by Jupiter on Sept 10, 2016 18:31:31 GMT
It's easy to want to give up, at times, many times.
But then you realize, even 'giving up' is hard to do.
Even 'giving up' takes effort, and then your mood or motivation could improve half way through giving up, and now you'll feel regretful.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 2, 2016 13:48:07 GMT
Wanna know what makes me happy now? Not Love, not pets, animals, or belief in a god, what makes me happy now, is only when have a lot of money which equals security. Bottom line. You just get to a point in your life where all you want is security, and the only way to get security is if you have lots of money. Being wise, smart, and all that other stuff just doesn't matter after a while, if broke, or near broke all the time and have to struggle, labor, and waste energy working low paying job just to pay basic bills. Nothing really matters, after a while, unless you have a lot of surplus money to spend. Without money, no one respects you, no one values you, and no one will listen to you. Sadly, money has become 'god' on Earth...those who have it do well, those who don't suffer. linkLife is just cruel if poor and near broke all the time. Your talent wasted, since can't or couldn't get into Ivy League school, or could be brilliant, but born in the Congo, and no one would ever notice, or fund your ideas. The longer I live, observe, not sure if belief in God changes anything for individual. God is near useless, if all it does is sit on the moon, and watches all the evil that takes place on Earth, for 10,000 years. Watches as civilizations rise, fall, come and go, yet does nothing in 'real time' to reveal self in real form. Always people from the past who saw, knew 'god', but never anyone in real current time. Just maybe those who live for 'the now', are the smart ones, in case there is no 'there after'.  Maybe now's the time to live, and be everything, cause when dead, maybe there's nothing. If that's the case, the 'meek' will have been fools, and not wise, spent the only time in existence out of trillions of years, listening to Authors of books telling them to be content with being poor and broke, then die, pass away, and absolutly nothing, zero, no reward, nothing, just wiped out of existence. Maybe 'God' or a Creator does exist, but that doesn't mean such a creator has ability to transfer 'conscious' into different body after death. Think about how hard that would be...once physical body dies, to be able to somehow save memories, self awareness, and transfer that to what? The further you get away from 0 A.D., the less sense it starts making. Why would 'God' have to be so delicate, and if 'Christ' the only way, why would God wait so long to return, knowing millions would be born unto different religious systems, no fault of their own....  If an honest person, soul or being, none of it makes sense after a while. Life was created, yes, that's obvious, but after that, none of it really makes sense anymore. |
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 17, 2016 0:40:08 GMT
Life really is jaded and scripted
If you're not already in 'Fates' play book, forget about it, you'll only be average despite extraordinary efforts
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 26, 2016 2:07:32 GMT
Late start this eveningLate mental start, came home and just hit the couch. Now trying to get as much out of evening until bedtime. It's October...and month almost gone, favorite time of year for me.  I love Halloween, the whole fall thing, maybe not so much here though where at now, where at now these people, their mentality, doesn't allow them to get into Holidays much. Not even sure if the rural world I was raised in even exists anymore. Compared to the festive spirit of those I was raised around, the people I live around now could be as aliens to me, I just don't get them and sure they don't get me. I just know to me they're mentally small and damaged. Almost could say 'ugly' on the inside. No decorations, nothing, just ugly suspicious moods all the time. I miss where I'm from, especially this time of the year. I think I'm the only one with decorations on my place around here, this year was determined not to let ugly seek it's own level. Hood people are very ugly on the inside, no cultural range at all what so ever. No trust, nothing, just suspicion, fear and violence. But they created that sh_t, I didn't. Then try to pull you down into that same ugliness. Try to make your spirit as dull and bland as their own. Especially in the SE. Guns, violence, thugs and drugs. What an identity to have. I so hope Donald Trump wins. Most people in society now are like germs to a great nation. Add nothing, contribute nothing, just crime, immorality, violence, and that's it. And if Hillary wins elections, more of these germs will be allowed to fester. Anyways, happy Halloween and Happy October to those who just want things to stay the same.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 27, 2016 1:50:15 GMT
Time for bed, can only accomplish so much within any 24 hour cycle..
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 28, 2016 0:13:51 GMT
If nation ever ran by bland 'blacks' or immigrants', there would be no Halloween....just ugly real life senseless violence.
When a people are happy and free, they tend to be more creative, hopefully newly arriving immigrants realize that and don't drag old nation ways into new nation.
Can other than 'white people' maintain that sense of freedom and generic existance?
Can other than 'white' people create conditions, constitution, that allows all to prosper?
That's yet to be seen in new world.
Those who love freedom and prosperity better hope America is more than a short lived dream or idea or experiment..
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 29, 2016 0:12:35 GMT
Blue eyes mean sh_t to me, unless loving kind behavior is behind them
Sorry, not one of these 'blue eyed' can do no wrong type of brainwashed types.
I realize a person with blue eyes can be just as deadly, dangerous, criminal as someone with grey or brown eyes.
I rate people by behavior, not color of eyes or skin ect.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 13, 2016 3:08:04 GMT
Geeky Saturday nightIt's that apex time of the weekend, a day removed from Friday and a day removed for Monday...that one peaceful moment in time when you belong to self and no one else, no job (if lucky enough to work M-F) Watching some goofy older move called 'Ghost of Frankenstein'...  1942...boy how times have changed...the music, how women behave on film...well maybe that hasn't changed, they still scream all the time... Moments like this I wish I could make last forever... It's times like this, when left alone, when all is quiet, that I have no use for tomorrow (A theme you've heard elsewhere as well) These older movies are so 'still'...if you get my drift.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 28, 2016 0:01:18 GMT
Unless absolutely love what you do, there's something sad about going back to work after 4 days off
Been off for 4 days, haven't had that many days off in almost a year.
One thing I realize is that no matter how many days I have off, never mentally prepared to go back to 'blind labor' type of job with no future...
The more time you have off, the more you begin to 'find yourself again', like when kid, and didn't have any worries.
Then that day comes, like a leash with a tension pull to it, you find yourself there on Monday once again.
Knowing that no matter how hard you work, bust your butt, risk your safety, it won't make a dern difference in pay or circumstances in life.
Hard work doesn't make you rich, owning your own business does, or simply getting higher % of profits you help bring in.
Anyways, gotta cut this short...back soon.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 11, 2016 23:19:46 GMT
Life continues to suckSorry,but at least for me, life continues to suck. Absolutely sucks. Not so much 'life', being alive is always wonderful, but rather the circumstance your 'alive time' has to navigate to make it. Life just sucks for most...low pay, regardless of labor or time spent on job, still can't pay rent, pay bills, mortgage, ect. There's only one of you, and that one of you can only generate so much 'income' in 24 hour cycle. When 'good' get screwed...but when a criminal, seems get rewarded...  Yes, seems criminals, mobsters, get rewarded (at least the smart ones) while the working class Ward Cleaver types get screwed over and over again by the system... I don't know...I do know life is short, and healthy life is even shorter. I just don't know anymore...God, no God, hell, no hell, heaven, no heaven. All I know is in the here and now if can't pay bills, get smeared.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 19, 2016 2:08:18 GMT
Weekend coming to quick end...bummer Hate to see wonderful weekend come to an end, seems there's just never enough to be 'free'. Ducks, geese, birds, animals in general...they seem to have it down path. And or even tribes from the past, before industrialism took over. Just live and be happy and enjoy gifts creator gave you or us, is what animals and or people, tribes from the past seemed to realize. Live while you're here, and then when done, oh well, have no control over that. If there's a god, eternal life, great, if not...Oh well. I want there to be a God, I want there to be eternal life...how wonderful would that be...  How wonderful would eternal life be!! And if there's a savior who wants to save me...than fine, cause I sure do need saving! But in the end, we just don't know, since no one comes back from the grave, death, and tells us anything... Well accept accounts of ghosts and spirits. But to me not really the dead, but rather the living, in that to me ghosts, demons ect, are alive like us, just on different plain. As such can easily 'fake' pretend to be your loved one, just to mess with your head. Life is short, billions, maybe trillions have lived before you, each thinking they had solution to life...soon myself, and you reading this will join them in the big abyss of nothing. So live while you can, live while alive.... And like some odd Mexican dude, kind of plump, from Texas, told me years ago when in Navy... "Never ever ever, consider suicide, never'... And to this day I remember that... Odd weird plump Mexican from Texas told me that one day long ago...not sure why...good day.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 20, 2016 4:37:53 GMT
Evenings away from work
Evenings away from mindless meaningless work are so refreshing, but sad that time seems to fly by so fast.
To be honest with you, I have no use for tomorrow...tomorrow is not going to bring me much of anything at all.
Or maybe I'm just blind.
I don't know.
I could sit here forever, locked in this moment, I have no more use for time anymore.
I'm perfectly content with now.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 26, 2016 3:21:46 GMT
Not this year Santa Not this year Santa Is the title of this piece or work or art. Santa hasn't visited me in quite some time. If anything, Santa Clause sits on me, squashes me, and slobbers over me. Oh well, at least still alive, can move, think and see. Merry Xmas to those able to really live and enjoy it, later. 
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 26, 2016 13:42:37 GMT
I don't care about the outside world anymore, when home, all I want to do is create art, nothing else matters to me much anymore.
When you go out, everyone already locked into their own family units, so it's not like folks are looking to 'embrace' you or hook up, everyone's already paired, so going out really doesn't serve me a purpose anymore other than to see others who are already paired.
Anymore I just come home and stay put, avoid traffic, accidents, noise, crowds, and instead escape into own world of art and fantasy..
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 6, 2017 1:01:34 GMT
HairUndecided about hair, to cut or not to cut, especially as male, single male. Corporate tight look?, or lots of hair 'brainy, unpredictable look?... I don't know. I do know first and foremost have to appeal to self, when looking in mirror.  I know that sounds conceited, but in reality if not 'sexy' to self, than won't appear sexy to others. You have to decide what look you want. Especially when older. Does short hair cut work or longer hair 'arouse' self? Cause if don't seem sexy to self, than won't seem sexy to others. If sexy to self, that self energy will project onto others. Me, right now, could go either way, could go high and tight and fluffy, or back of ears, head, long and more model like. Both work (as long as body is fit) Lately been high and tight, but 'fluffy'. Gives you that younger 'tight' look. Sporty look, with lots of hair atop, yet trimmed on sides and back of head. Basically 80's look come back around. Then again some males hang onto long hair long after they should of let it go. It's all about body and weight type I suppose, regardless of color or ethnicity. For blacks, long hair may mean dreads, for whites, long hair may mean simply long hair. For native Americans long hair may mean silky appearing jet black hair that represents vitality youth and power. To me, hair growth does represent life and vitality. Hair growth, represents hope and life to me. Anyways, I can't decide right now whether to cut and trim or grow.
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