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Post by Jupiter on Jul 4, 2015 13:51:30 GMT
It's the Fourth, but I'm not going anywhere today, don't need to, I live in a nice quiet section of community, with decent view. There's just not much to lure me out there anymore. Sometimes feel I've already seen all there is to see. After a while get tired of seeing that which you can't buy or obtain, be it people or property. People in that I go out, see interesting people on streets, at mall, outside water park mall ect, but it's not like they're going to say 'Hey you, come join us in our festivities, we like you to, and find you to be just as interesting as you think we are'.Nope, instead I usually come home feeling more alone than when I left. I realized long ago I'm not any ones sunshine anymore, unless in a 'Can I assist or help you' type of role. Where I'm rendering assistance to a broke down motorist, or opening door type of stuff, but outside of being courteous, no one takes notice, and as if a passing ghost or something. Go to store and everyone treats you like you're broke or something. Security jumps out of no where as if you're a threat...it's all very demeaning, like this odd doll says here... shopping while Black and maleSo it's like why even go out? Why go out just to be demeaned by society, by others, who live more corrupt lives, lie more, sin more, than I do, but yet these horrible people want to look back at you as if you're the one who's baaaad. So I stay home now most of the time. What's the use of seeing women all dressed up, if all are to stuck up to say hi or get to know anyone in public? It all just gets old after a while, same ole patterns. I have gym, plenty of food, I'll just stay home today and chill. |
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 4, 2015 18:14:15 GMT
If you don't continue moving forward in life, Hell will catch youOne thing for sure is if we don't continue moving forward in life, Hell catches us, and hell comes in many different forms that specifically custom fit every individual. In other words everyone has their own hell that will catch them if one fails to continue moving forward in life. Make that decision, start or end that friendship, take that job, finance that money for your business ect. Point is make a decision, move forward in life for the good or bad, or hell will catch you, your own personal hell will catch you. 
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 5, 2015 1:30:45 GMT
 Happy 4th, I guess. |
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 5, 2015 19:59:38 GMT
 A blast from the past, who doesn't miss these yellow colored jets as a kid looking up into the sky.. |
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 18, 2015 12:41:14 GMT
They're accepted by society do to color, yet still turn on those who embraced them The one thing black people or those deemed as such, have always wanted was blind acceptance. When one is darker skinned, black ect, that never occurs, for when you have a darker skin tone you instantly stand out. (At least in the West) When darker skinned or deemed as black or having negroid features, people instantly assign all sorts of usually negative attributes to your intentions, intelligence, motives ect. What baffles many in the black community is how these very light skinned, Persian, Muslims come to America, pass for lilly white, are accepted in any community, yet turn so angry against the 'whites' who accepted them, when there's native born blacks who still can't get that kind of blind acceptance after having roots in this nation for over 300 years or more. Every black person dreams of not being 'black', not having features that instantly make people think the worst of you. Being a black American is almost like a parody, a spoof...cause even though you're a citizen, you really aren't. As a black person just try driving or walking in small mid western towns in Kansas or Nebraska or Wyoming ect, and see how long it takes for cops to show up, see how long it takes for some one to call cops, and tell dispatch 'Hey, there's this strange black man/woman walking in my neighborhood, I think they're selling drugs'.If one is a black American you basically only fit in in urban areas, but 30 miles or less outside of urban areas you will be made to feel like a foreigner in your own country. Yet these very light skinned Persian Americans come over and are embraced by any community, are embraced by 'whites'...who love you if you look white like them. Then they end up committing terrorism in the name of Islam. Where as a black person, no matter how American or patriotic they are, are never fully accepted simply do to skin color and ethnic features. These light skinned Persians come here, and are accepted and allowed to live anywhere, whites love them, they're allowed to live where a black person never could. Allowed to date, go to cafes', mingle ect, with the white upper class. Yet still end up committing acts of Jihad against those who loved and embraced them. Yet a native born black person who is a saint, is still faces harsh racism and colonial era bigotry from the very whites who openly accept Mohammid do to his skin tone. Makes no sense.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 2, 2015 22:57:49 GMT
I think there are many ways you can die, and be reborn symbolically, other than through religion
I do believe one can 'die', and be 'reborn' symbolically outside of religion.
By simply giving up bad habits, making better choices, and leaving destructive habits and or people and or mindsets behind.
Long pause...
Someone called while I was writing, will finish this up later, their call kind of threw me off my train of thought.
OK, now I'll continue thought, truth
As I was expressing earlier, I think dying and being reborn can also be done outside of religious context.
I think dying and reborn can be done in common sense context as well.
In that one can make up mind to move forward, to give up bad habits, to change attitude about life for a desired more positive outcome.
One doesn't have to be religious to realize that 'old ways' lead to destruction and death, and that if want to continue to live and enjoy life, must change, bury bad habits, and arise with new better ones.
Bury drug use, and arise by eating healthy.
Bury heavy drinking, and arise by being sober.
Bury procrastination and arise by becoming more responsible and taking care of issues as they arise.
Some people need religion to transform them into 'better person', other people just need common sense.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 8, 2015 3:48:40 GMT
I no longer want to be famous or known for anything anymore, can't believe I ever did, or thought that it would change anything.
I'm content being faceless.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 14, 2015 22:20:38 GMT
Environment is Key
Environment is key to much, in this instance, it's key to serenity.
Example, I recently changed routes I take going to work, and instead of driving through main streets, past 3 hotels, past trash on the ground and trashy people, dudes walking with shirts off and pants sagging, people just going no where in life, instead of going through that ugly environment every morning, I found other way to get to work, where it's through middle class working neighborhood.
Same color of people, just totally different mindset, home owners.
And what I see it nice clean yards, no litter, no BS, and that sets me off in a better mood as I'm driving to work.
Makes me feel there's hope.
Environment is key to a lot.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 16, 2015 3:53:04 GMT
How did HBO go from being King of good movies, years or decades ago, to being what it has evolved in today? HBO is the last place I'd go to for movies now, their selection of movies absolutely sucks!! Their old, outdated, weren't popular when they were current, and they repeat, replay, the same crappy movies over and over and over again, even on different channels. Their over all movie selection sucks, and not sure who selects them. HBO might be the sole reason that I get rid of cable and seek alternative. I mean when I want to watch a movie, I want to watch something good, that I like, not some pre selected garbage. I may seek a purely movie orientated service, where you can choose what you want to watch, since the people at HBO are totally out of touch with good movies, and just replay the same ones 100's or 1000's of time each month...  |
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 30, 2015 16:12:16 GMT
How come only ugly people stare?I know that sounds mean, cause beauty and ugly are totally subjective suggestions based on own personal preference, I get that. But regardless, seems whatever person one finds starring at them always leans towards the ugly, non attractive or creepy end of the scale. I mean whens the last time someone whom you thought were attractive was locked into starring at you? Hardly never, at least with me. Attractive people, people who are together, feel confident, seem to rarely stare at others. This applies to both sexes, males and females. Other ugly, creepy, odd looking males seem to stare at good looking males, and they also stare at attractive females. But attractive looking females hardly stare at anyone, unless at some sophisticated club or event or gathering or in a school environment or training environment. But in public, you rarely if ever turn around and find an attractive female starring back at you. Maybe that happens to Lesbians, but not to males. I'm not the best looking person in the world, nor the worst looking person, I'd like to think I stand somewhere in the 80% area. When it comes to looks I'd like to think I'm in the 'B' range. If everything is right, lighting, having good hair day, exercising, nice outfit, than sometimes I can creep into the 'A' looks category. But I'm not a natural 'A' list looking person. When I wake up in the morning I'm probably more a 'C-' category. You know you're truly cute, handsome, good looking, when no matter the time of day, no matter hair mode, shadows, upside down, right side up, you still look good and photogenicThere are some people who just look so naturally good all the time do to genetics, that no matter the time of day, good hair, bad hair, could be hanging upside down, sideways, no matter what they always look cute or handsome. People like that just have a genetic blessing, just have facial structure that makes them always look good no matter what. I'm definitely not of that class, most of us aren't, but have met those who are, and even though we can't be like them, they can be fun to be around. Sadly most of us have what I can 'brittle' looks, in that everything has to be perfect, in order to produce average looks.  Hat has to be positioned on head just right, make up must be applied just right, hair has to be just right, sun glasses have to be worn just right, lighting has to be just right and so forth. I call those 'brittle looks' in that if one little thing is off, so are looks. That's D or C lookers trying to pass for B+ or A looks. That's why it's good to just have a A+ personality, cause in the end if you have a A+ personality, none of that other stuff will matter. Work on having a decent, fun loving, personality, and all the other stuff you want will eventually fall in line. People with A+ looks often lack personality cause they learn early on in life they don't need one. They learn that people are drawn to them no matter what, cause of their looks, they learn that their personality is the last thing those attracted to them are interested in. And is why so often very good looking people can be so shallow or even mean. And is why often people considered ugly, tend to have more bubbly, kinder, approachable personalities cause ugly people learn early on that personality is all they got. And is why I don't trust news anchors who drown themselves in make up, cause I can only imagine how hollow and dry their personalities are off camera and at home.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 5, 2015 13:13:53 GMT
I expressed some things yesterday on social media, that Now I'm like 'why would I say that?
At the time it made sense, but now when I think back, it seems a bit mean to me.
I don't like being mean, even when making a point, when you're mean it sours your soul, and that's something only you feel, have to live with, until the meaness you did is un done.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 7, 2015 23:50:45 GMT
Just feel like taking a calm evening drive while listening to elevator music.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 14, 2015 21:04:39 GMT
Today was one of those days I felt like should of never occured
I stayed out way to late last night, visited someone, sort of was in party mode, then came back and had to awaken early for 'jury duty'.
Was a bit late, but it didn't matter cause so were they in selecting jurors.
I was totally out of it, didn't talk to anyone really, didn't feel like it, was kind of hung over from night before.
But luckly our pool of jurors was dismissed, but by this time to late to go to work so came home and am doing nothing.
Felt totally out of social sinc with everyone there today, a totally different class of people, none working types, stay at home types, administrative types, slow walking types.
Just felt out of place there today for some reason.
Guess I'll try to salvage what's left of the day.
Some other odd stuff is going on also but has to do more with spiritual oddities which I'll write about in a different section later.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 15, 2015 1:30:10 GMT
Sometimes it takes going out for me to realize how much more athletic and in general better shape, I am, than many of my peers, meaning people within my same age group.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 16, 2015 2:13:06 GMT
Sad how looking back, I realize I took certain people, friendship, women who had crushes on me, for granted, and now years later, in new area, these same types seem impossible to find anymore...kind of sad...
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