Lifes Journal

Even most of these new alternatives to 'twitter' and 'FB' or Asian or China owned.

These social media apps...they have studied the 'west' for so long, they know the west better than the west knows itself...so you join these apps, and all they probably do is collect information about you better than even twitter or FB does, with fake interaction to boot.

So you think you're interacting with a equal peer, but instead who knows who it could be, a bot, a Gov spy, advertiser, who know.

Social media is just toxic now, nothing more than information gathering about you, so that 'you' can be studied....so so sad.

Just seems no real people left anymore in the cyber world.

The cyber world is becoming as vicious as the streets...so so sad.

Comparing now with this time last year

The main difference is last year I had way more websites, like 4?, and owned domains and other 'Go Daddy' products, I've since dropped every single one of them and saving money because of.

It's hard to compete with Amazon and other large retailers now days with your own small online store, cause unless your friends are buying from you, hardly no one will.

A year ago I also had cloud radio station that played around the clock, I've since ended that to, it was made up of smaller podcasts I did for online radio show I had earlier, but I've just moved on from it all, but when I was in it, boy was I in it...that's when I barely ever came to this blog forum.

And speaking of podcasts, I haven't created one in months, just not into anymore..it's fun when into it cause you don't notice or care about the tremendious time it takes to prepare just one episode.

You can spend hours preparing one episode and get just 4 'listens' in a month...I just got burned out on it all and refocused my attention to writing on here again, and other places.

Let's see, I'm no longer on FB, ended that to....and rarely visit any other social media sites I have apart from these forums.

I just don't get how they work to be honest, twitter was the only one I could understand, but then they started throttling back on everyones followers and become ever so political.

Now it's like you're debating with twitter staff more so than just random people on there.

I only have one vehicle now, and no car payments as tree fell on Kia Soul I use to have, but in a way that's good cause ended payments and got small pay out, so that has saved me around 360 a month including car insurance...those savings add up.

In fact last year at this time I had a car and a older white van, both are gone, the van conked out on the way back from work on early morning.

Previous year I spent like 2000 trying to get that van fixed up, what a waste of money.

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And now I only usually work just 3 days a week, and still make OK money, so things are much more simple, you'd think I'd be or feel much happier, but I don't, at least not at this moment.

If I had this situation 10 years ago I'd be much happier about it cause was in a different place mentally...but now I just feel 'older', and less to get excited about in the future.

Growing older while being unloved isn't so fun.

Knowing you're one accident or illness away from nothing, is no fun.

Had I had a hard night of drinking last night which ran early into the morning, so modd just isn't so bright right now.

And now Biden's in office, and scary things are in the horizon, scary politcies that once again benefit the wealthy global class, and ignores the day to day working class.

And Trump has been silenced from social media.

I just don't have much projected hope going into this year.

Wow, what a song, thanks for passing around

I don't really like people who are so insecure that they feel they must own a pitbull.

I've had years to examine the personality of such types, and they're all the same, tough, or pretend to be tough on the outside, very small on the inside, and in urban areas, seems I see both males and females, urban types, who don't feel they're complete and whole unless they own a pit bull.

I don't like when people use animals in that way, to boost their own 'size'.

Me, I like smaller breeds of dogs, like cat sized dogs, at least while living in city or apartment, I think it's cruel and nasty to own large pet while living in apartment, then gone all day to work and dog has to stay in a pen, within place, what kind of a life is that?

Who of us would want to stay locked away in a cage, with barely enough room to turn around, for 9 hours a day then when owner comes home, go for short walk, then back inside.

In the wild dogs roam for mile and miles.

I tried owning a dog once while living in apartment, and just couldn't do it, as I'd leave for the day, just felt so sad seeing dog in cage, or puppy, so I gave it away to a family that lived in country on small farm and had mentally challenged kids, perfect fit...now dog has place to roam and a role to play.

This was years ago, over 5 years ago.

Anyways, I hope that dog and family are doing well....they're probably doing better than me actually.

I feel like crap today, the day's not bad at all, I just feel the night after drinking type of 'bad'.

But you know what, I'd rather feel bad and not be at work than to feel bad and be at work or having to prepare for work...no worse feeling than not being fully recovered or just sick, and then having to prepare for work, especially if blue collar type of work.

People who whisper are like demons, here's why

I've seen this cycle played out over and over again, that is how people are effected by those who 'whisper', and by doing so spread false rumors, ideas, about another or 'others', without 'facts' to back it up.

This is the cycle...

1. You meet someone new, or a group of people, all is well, life is good, making plans

2. Next day or week, person or people you meet or met, now seem distant and or ignore you.

3. Why?...do to the demonic whisperer or whisperer's in the background.

4. Years later, those who whispered did nothing to help the person you actually could have helped, wanted to help, and when see person years later they look depleted, aged, tired and spent, prime years wasted.


I see this over and over again folks, those who whisper are like demons, the spread lies, fables ect, yet never help anyone, or the one they're whispering to.

Beware of those who whisper.

The thing that bugged me about Amazon Prime movie selection was seemed, even though already paying monthly subscription price, seems all the good movies you wanted to watch, still had to order them, well if that's the case, if have to order a movie, than why would I not just order the DVD so could own and watch forever instead of just once?