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Post by Jupiter on Apr 22, 2023 12:45:51 GMT
Accepting your own fate, even though it may not be good or desired means what?
Lying to self?
Playing the mind game of ignore?
Creating a false narrative in your own mind?
Letting go and not caring about anything anymore?
I suppose, in the end, no one really totally wins in this world.
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Post by Jupiter on May 17, 2023 13:24:41 GMT
I ask myself, what is my purpose to self today?
My purpose to the world is nothing, zero, so have to instead ask myself what is my purpose to self today?
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Post by Jupiter on May 30, 2023 13:11:02 GMT
I'm up, and not motivated or inspired to do much of anything.
I thought I was in a cool, new, relationship with another, but had to put the brakes on that...and now, I just feel a bit empty on the inside.
They gave me hope of a better, more purposeful future for a while, but in the end, they had to many side issues.
I live a safe life, you have to when all you have to depend on is yourself.
Right now though, that aside, my life just doesn't have any purpose to it, to be honest...just not sure what to do going forward, to bring back some excitement to the day, to the future.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 13, 2023 4:20:56 GMT
Very very early in the morning, like 20 minutes after 12 mindnight type of early morning.
Eating instant outmeal...yummy.
Denver Nuggets won the NBA finals...
Good for them, I'm still near broke.
That aside, I need to find a fun movie to watch.
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 1, 2023 5:32:14 GMT
Still dark out, I don't know what time it is cause I never look at the clock when off from work. I just know it's still dark out. Hopefully I've bled off enough thoughts to where now I can lay back down and fade into sleep. You have to do that sometimes, just bleed your thoughts off by writing, get them outside of your head. So ye, let me try to lay down again and go to bed, while watching a semi scary movie by the name of 'Deadware'..it's like a video game horror movie.  |
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 22, 2023 14:44:05 GMT
Time to get up and do some things.
Been lingering in bed all morning, a bit under the weather, but I've learned if linger in bed to long, you won't get better.
By moving around, you let your body know 'Hey, I don't want to be sick'...
But if linger in bed for to long, your body seems to take it's time in fighting off whatever illness you have.
At least that's the case with me.
The body will respond to the mind, your mind.
Your mind is the command center of your body, never forget that.
And the cells are your troops.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 29, 2023 13:24:32 GMT
When you wake up, get up, and absolutely have no desire to go to work, and face all the other stuff the day will throw at you.
It's not a good feeling at all.
If there was a mental institute, or even more like a 'time out' institute, like in the movie 'One flew over the cuckoos nest', I'd check myself in for a few years, (I think a lot of people would, especially today) just to give self a time out.
There is no time out session in life for working class adults, unless want to become homeless, but that's to high of a penalty for someone just looking for a pause in their life.
Oh well, no such pause for me, just the usual daily BS.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 16, 2023 5:59:52 GMT
I think I'm done thinking I can, or should, make a difference in this world.
People are rotten, they lie, fib, fabricate stuff to fit their own belief system.
I think now, I just want to escape, if even possible anymore now that this demonic Biden admin has let so many evil people flow into this country.
As such, all the little safe cozy places are evaporating.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 19, 2023 7:47:27 GMT
'mylife . com, needs to be sued!!
This site, mylife. com, they invent stuff about 'you', make it seem you have a criminal record when you do not.
They should be sued!! for damaging peoples reputations.
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 23, 2024 11:45:26 GMT
Life isn't scary, it's people who are scary.
That being said, because the world is filled with scary people, things certainly seem uncertain for me right now, out of balance.
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 23, 2024 11:48:58 GMT
Some people make mistakes, didn't listen to you years ago, and then when older and in a jam, expect you to sacrifice your well being for their own mistakes.
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Post by Jupiter on Mar 5, 2024 12:44:59 GMT
I wake up this morning feeling like I've just lost at life.
I've lost, yet I'm still living and here.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 5, 2024 5:17:58 GMT
I'm lost right now, I thought if I ever came into a bit of money, I'd know what to do, but actually, if the money isn't over 6 figures, it's really hard to do much other than keep working.
Here's the deal though
1. My apartment lease expires in the summer
2. I don't want to have to pay rent after that, which means
a. Will have to live in a RV, and float around different RV parks
b. Will have to buy land, where can park RV for free, like unrestricted type land, or a lot.
c. Live in a large tent...lol.
Also, before you get money, in your mind, you plan to spend it, but once you get it, you don't want to spend it cause you realize once gone, it's gone, and can never ever earn back.
So ye, a bit confused right now trying to decide what's the best path for me going forward.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 17, 2024 11:15:21 GMT
Had really cool dreams as I slept, so interactive.
People usually just seem so much cooler in dreams.
Well, I'm up now, in the real world, where people aren't as nice as they are in dreams.
Where things get stolen.
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Time is of the essence, and I need to really manage my time way way better.
I've been out of work for about 2 months now, and still haven't really accomplished anything...well, yes and no...just not the smaller things that fill in the cracks in your life.
I'm in some kind of film school right now, paid a lot to go down this route, not sure if it was the best decision...is any decision ever the best though?
You can only make a decision and run with it.
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Anyways, it's Wednesday, it's still morning, think I'll go fry a few eggs.
One thing for sure, I eat better now that home more.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 17, 2024 11:52:00 GMT
I realize this now, having nice stuff, at least in a bad area, just makes you more paranoid.
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