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Post by Jupiter on Oct 29, 2023 15:18:18 GMT
It's Sunday (My Saturday) Who needs Halloween, when every day life is scary to most of us. And who needs invented monsters, when if live close to, or in and around urban types, you see monsters walking the streets and victimizing people daily, or at least in the news headlines. Think of all the criminals, that have yet to be caught, just roaming the streets right now, killers and more, whom have escaped the law...gross, why were such monsters even born? I have split views on the whole abortion debate....depends on the community, I suppose. Anyways (and yes I said that) Conservatives what everyone to be born, yet once born, then they're for the death penalty...huh? Anyways. It's Sunday, I'm a mess, just coming off of 3 long shifts. Seems I feel worse coming off work than I do when I drink. I gotta make some major decisions this year, decisions that will change the trajectory of my life, hopefully in a better way. But in the end, we're all doomed, regardless the decisions we make, in the end, rot, wear and tear, and destruction will catch us all.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 24, 2023 16:44:34 GMT
In my own prison, mental prison In my own mental prison today, have been for a while actually.
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 21, 2024 14:53:00 GMT
It's Sunday, I think, I sure hope so It's Sunday, and I feel 'OK', have felt worse before, for sure. I'll get started on new 'to do list'...cause the one from yesterday got way out of control. It's good to create a new 'to do list' daily as to not get burned out...it's all phycological, heck life is a phycological battle. Some people have it easy, others never will, but those with love in their life have it easier, regardless of what they're going through. And if have love in your life, feel loved, are loved, and have money as well, than you're doing mighty fine.Me, and others, have neither...we just get by, some how we just get by. Anyways, it's Sunday, time to get up and scurry about and get eaten up by yet another day or corrosive time.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 7, 2024 15:21:31 GMT
It's Sunday, and I feel like crap It's Sunday, and I feel morally like crap. Devastating day yesterday, and still not recovered, healed, not till tomorrow.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 7, 2024 21:42:42 GMT
Lost bill fold, so don't have no money, access to money, so can't really do anything until tomorrow morning, and hopefully slowly begin to restore my life.
Until then, hmm...create a new 'to do list' for the rest of the day.
I feel like drinking some beer, but can't even do that, so instead I end up snacking on stuff all day long.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 15, 2024 3:24:03 GMT
How's my day going?
It'll be mid-nigt soon, so day's almost over, but how did it go?
OK, I guess, from a 1-10, 10 being the best, I'd rate today's experience a 6.1
Slept in late, finally got up, dressed, went for a drive, walked, grocery shopped, came back in and then had a few beers (darn)
And when came back, my parking spot was filled.
When I got back is when the day started deteriorating for me...beer drowsiness set in, and my mood was hostage to that from then on out.
Also, I'm enrolled in a film school now, a accelerated one...I paid a hefty price for it, and so now I have a lot of learning and other tasks to do that will be totally new to me over the next few months, as my lease expires.
One day at a time.
I still hate the people in the area I live, no connection to them at all.
It's still a dangerous area, and I have newer vehicle now so always paranoid some punks are going to mess with the vehicle.
Can't really own nice stuff around ghetto minded people.
And since parking spot taken when I returned from store, parked nicer newer car in utility spot, which I really shouldn't have (but it's Sunday so management isn't here).
That means I got to get dressed again and go back out to the most dangerous spot in the hood, and that's apartment parking lots at night.
That's where people get shot, robbed, ambushed, ect.
Apartment parking lots are the most dangerous place to dwell at night, at least in hoodish areas.
Anyways, I can no longer keep up with my own 'to do list', it like swells to like 30+ things to do in less than an hour.
And drinking beer for sure hampers my productivity....I'm going to have to get a handle on that, for sure, if I want to succeed over the next few months.
Poor poor me, will I ever get my life in order?
I'm older now and doing things I should have done 20 years ago.
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Post by Jupiter on May 5, 2024 15:11:58 GMT
I need to get up and out and go do something, anything, before I lose my mind.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 16, 2024 16:11:09 GMT
Microsoft Edge browser really does suck
Edge browser sucks, and shuts down, and you have to re-open everything, and then sometimes sites, when using edge, suddenly don't recognize you...screw edge, but it's incorporated into windows, etc and whatever.
Bill Gates company is as tyrannical as google.
just a morning where nothings going right, so far...and of course always the product you need, want the most, on Amazon, is the item that's always 'delayed'...amazing how that work, as if devils and gremlins can read you mind and make the one specific item you want the most, get delayed...amazing.
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Anways, going to get up, dressed, and go take a bike ride, just to clear the mind a bit, cause staying in this room any longer without a break is going to drive me mad.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 4, 2024 14:48:12 GMT
It's Sunday  Yep, it's Sunday. Went to bed feeling OK, even woke up during the early morning feeling OK. But between going back to bed early this morning and now, wow, what a drop off. But I did lose a bit more weight...that's good, but meaningless. Truth is, my future, or at least a future that's favorable to me, just seems out of reach right now...and I have to deal with that as it gets closer and closer. The world I've created for myself basically sucks. The only place I get a bit of peace is within my living quarters, but all around me is hell. It's like having a safe hut withing the realm of hell, but eventually the hot fires burn down your hut, then what? ------------------------- Anyways, the day is here, and I'm being dragged along, so may as well step out into hell here soon and do something. It's Sunday.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 4, 2024 16:33:50 GMT
 When I workout, my body responds decently, it's just before and after, that well, sometimes muscle pain or soreness can be felt. Also, workouts don't really improve my mood, hope, hope for the future is what changes your mood. But without hope, it's like working out on a ship that's sinking, sure, your fine for the moment, but what about tomorrow? |
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 25, 2024 14:58:02 GMT
It's Sunday It's Sunday.I just got done working out, short but effective, I'll workout again later today. -------------------------- On a side note, I notice those who screamed about Jesus to me the most, years ago, are all afflicted with medical issues now.All the ones telling me about nutrition, are now sickly...I don't get it. I was drinking hard during those years...as in working class drinker, meaning I'd drink when at home and on the weekends, yet went to the doctor on Thursday of last week, the 22nd of Aug, and got a clean bill of health, even my liver was in top tip shape...hmm.
I'm not saying drinking is good, cause it isn't, and currently I'm trying to stop, but I just find it ironic those who always say 'Jesus' every other word out their mouth, are the ones who I see getting sick, sickly, can't walk right, etc. I just find it a sham, a crutch, a mental condition, a sign or insecurity in their own salvation. That's why I left all that crap...I didn't leave God or being a decent person, I left the sharade of church types. It's like a competition with them, who can be the most Jesus like, or who can brag the loudest about how much their god blessed them. 'Oh, I was blessed 10 times'...'Oh yeah, well I was blessed 20 times', and so forth. ----------------------------------- Anyways, seems we're all afflicted in different ways, my affliction is in the form of social isolation. That being said, it's Sunday, I'm alive, still here, but other than that nothing is new under the sun.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 25, 2024 15:02:55 GMT
The balls game, very addictive, or used to be
I used to be addicted to this game, not so much now that.
I backed away from online game, lot's of spam in them and they waste big chunks of your time.
Like the dizzy sissy does...lol
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 22, 2024 18:20:12 GMT
It's Sunday Wow, it's already minutes past 2 pm...wow... I woke up early, but then laid back in bed, fell asleep, in and out of dreams, and now wow, big chunk of the day is gone...stupid lazy me. I need my time back, so after this it's time to focus...but I'm so dizzy and lazy, who knows how long that'll last...but I must try, cause if I don't I'll be fiscally doomed soon. The only person who can save me, is well, me. Time to get up and take on the day, which is already on top of me.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 27, 2024 16:42:57 GMT
Sunday Online life can drive you mad, if you let it. It's Sunday, woke up feeling emotionally gutted. I think foods you eat before bed really can effect your mood in the morning, in a good or bad way. I mean we are what we eat, and certain chemicals inside food do effect our mood or moods, is why so often our moods change rapidly without us even knowing why, it's cause of the foods we eat and or better yet the chemicals man keeps putting in the food we eat. Anyways, it's Sunday, I need to get started on something...already after 12 noon, wow...time just needs to slow down. I need to go workout or something, flush my system clean. Later and out, for now. It's Sunday, Halloween is in a few days.
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