It's Sunday

Why does my mind and enthusiasm for life just all seem to stop when I'm finally home and off from work?

Yet, when at work, doing what I hate, all I can do is think of all the things i want to do when off from the job, then when finally off, all I want to do is slump around naked all day in place as if living in a cave.

It's Sunday



I'm so different than most in that I don't like the term 'Happy Sunday', I despise that term, or happy Monday ect.

People are so uncreative when it comes to creating gifs.

That aside, I've got to 'fix' my life a bit, cause I started drinking again, and by doing so it has kind of thrown me off mental course.
Been making a fool out of myself, saying things I want, that I don't, to others.
Sending inappropriate emails to those I'm trying to do business with ect...I feel I crossed the line for my own behavioral standards.
Maybe not others, but mine.
It's one thing if I drink, and stay to myself, but when my drinking starts making me act a fool publicly, or over the phone, or through emails, that's when I need to stop.

And again, the stuff I do while drunk, would be minor silly stuff to most, but to me, I don't know, I should know better.

But that last round of drinking just hit me like it hasn't in years, as if I were 19 again, young and dumb.
I think that's what happens when you drink, yet are healthy, you don't realize how much you've had until it just hits, and even then, in your mind you're in control...but what happens is a different devious spirit emerges, or many, that seem to try to get you in trouble.

Well I've been lucky so far, to say the least, cause I seem to have a nack of walking right up to that line of trouble, and stopping just in the nick of time.

Even when drunk, I know not to cross that line, I guess, cause I never have...that line being disturbing the public peace or assaulting someone in public, or anything illegal...I just never go that far.
But I do make a fool out of myself, like most do when they're drunk.

Anyways, I'm sober now and plan on staying this way for a while, cause I've got to clean up my life, even unjoin a social site, that I probably joined while drunk.

Today is Sunday, although it feels like Saturday to me, since I worked yesterday and off today until Wed.

I need to move, I've been in this one spot way to long, ain't nothing good happening here for me other than it's quite, I suppose.

It's Sunday



It's Sunday, first day off in 3, and I'm a bit mad at myself for not doing more with the day, not going anywhere, just staying home, and doing stuff I could do on a weeknight after work.

I don't know, I need to move, I've saturated this area, in that where do I go?
Wherever I do go, nearby, I see the exact same ghetto people, whether in the park, at the fishing peer, while riding my bike, or driving, or shopping, no matter, it's always the same run down sloppy looking ghetto people, not very inspiring at all.
Either that or run down scruffy older looking 'W' folks who look all burned out on life.

Where have all the spring chicken younger collage aged white people gone?
I was raised in a college town, so that's what I'm used to seeing.
But I guess with like 50,000 fentanyl deaths per year, or more, I guess all the younger college aged white folks are dying from fetnal poisoning.

Not only that, but since not drinking, it's harder for me to entertain myself while alone.
When drinking or drunk, being alone is a lot easier cause you get caught up in your own silly antics, but when sober, it's different, and you feel the sting of being alone a bit or a lot more.

There are senior citizens having more of a blast today than I am, sitting here at home cleaning and doing other hyper boring dull stuff, what a shame.

Just in a lazy mood, you can have energy and still feel lazy.

Yep, it's Sunday alright



Yep, it's Sunday alright, just now really getting up, been waddling around with self in bed all morning and into the afternoon.
And now eating some stale reheated chicken that tastes, yuk.

I'm just relaxing and enjoying my day off.
I have 4 fans blowing on me, no need for a/c.

I have no life, no social life at all whatsoever, and so will just keep my butt home all day and play around with the closet monster or monsters, I suppose.

Other than that, not much going on, not really paying attention to the news, the world could be burning down right now, what do I care, as long as I don't have to go to work.



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It's Sunday



Yep, it's Sunday all right, and I'm off from work, thank goodness.
And I haven't had a drink in, let's see, 11 days, cool.
But odd, when first stop drinking, you still wake up as if did, you still wake up with kind of that 'hey, how many beers did I drink last night' type of feeling.

It's like your body, out of habit, makes you think you drank even when you didn't.
But I had to stop, cause I was getting out of control with my drunk emotions, I was becoming like Mr Jekele and Hyde, two different personalities, a drunk one and a sober one, and the drunk one was dominating.

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So anyways it's Sunday, I'm up, slept in late, and so now what?
I 'to do list' I suppose.
And we'll just see what happens from there.

It's Sunday



It's Sunday, oh what shall I do?
It's not typical church day for me, peace and tranquility day is what it is for me, a buffer between the chaos of yesterday and the chaos that will be tomorrow.

It's Sunday, maybe I'll start the day off with a walk in the park.