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Moods
Sept 10, 2024 2:25:21 GMT
Post by Jupiter on Sept 10, 2024 2:25:21 GMT
 My mood is weird, I should be more unhappier than I am with all the up coming uncertainty in my life, and changes I may have to make, again, in my living situation. |
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Moods
Sept 23, 2024 15:53:50 GMT
Post by Jupiter on Sept 23, 2024 15:53:50 GMT
 Woke up this morning, the second time, feeling totally defeated by life and by 'self'. I just lay there, in the bed, in a very submissive laying stance as I laid beneath weighted covering. But the thing about life and bad fortune or evil or etc, is even when you give up, it still comes at you...there is no 'white flag' so to speak. There is no command center to surrender to, and then all your problems just go away. So no matter how bad you feel, depressed you feel, hopeless you are or feel, you still have to function, no matter what...at least as an adult you do, especially if alone. You may feel like giving up, but you can't, cause there's no one to give up to. You still have to get up and go about your day, there's no ones arms to collapse into and they say 'All will be OK'... Not as a single adult anyways....and if male, it's even worse. ------------------- Anyways, time to get up and out and go workout, before I get drowsy again and go back to bed. it's Monday alright...yep. |
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Moods
Sept 30, 2024 13:07:03 GMT
Post by Jupiter on Sept 30, 2024 13:07:03 GMT
Today, is one of those 'Good Lord, what the heck was I thinking', type of moods I'm in after waking up.
I just feel so buried in impossible odds right now to ever achieve what I feel I need to in order to be happy going forward.
This morning, life just feels like hell to me.
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Moods
Oct 2, 2024 23:06:58 GMT
Post by Jupiter on Oct 2, 2024 23:06:58 GMT
In a odd mood, to drink or not to drink?
I only care about right 'now', at the moment.
Seems tomorrow will be hell regardless.
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Moods
Oct 3, 2024 4:51:41 GMT
Post by Jupiter on Oct 3, 2024 4:51:41 GMT
I really don't even know what day it is...I think it might be Wednesday? Either way, it's about time for me to lay down in bed, or air mattress, watch some streaming TV, and then fade off. I feel sorry for myself at times...life never stops coming at you. I know others have it physically worse than me right now, but you can't comfort self by always comparing your situation to another's. Every person has their own custimized hellish realm to navigate and contimplate. And what might be hell to one, could be heaven to another. Anyways, about to lay down, watch some Rod Sterling Twilight Zone, and other stuff of interest on streaming TV. I drank a little tonight, I just couldn't bear the feeling of dread, or nothingness that was in me. With no one to hug, or hug you back, it can be hard at times, emotionally. Oh well.
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Moods
Oct 28, 2024 20:56:51 GMT
Post by Jupiter on Oct 28, 2024 20:56:51 GMT
Today, as I sit here, I feel doomed  One of those days.
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