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Post by Jupiter on Aug 17, 2024 17:55:04 GMT
It's Saturday.
After sleeping in late, first thing I did was get dressed, groomed, and than put bike in back of truck, drove a bit, parked at Post office, took bike out, and then rode around large industrial area...it was wonderful and refreshing to go to an area where no traffic and wide open roads.
Would be a great place to roller blade also, just maybe I will one day, if not to embarraced to be seen.
Anyways, up, awake, but not feeling motivated at all to do anything.
The mind and spirit can be hard to figure out at times.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 17, 2024 21:16:33 GMT
I've gotten absolutely nothing done today, other than workout...it's like I'm just frozen.
It's like all I want to do is be conscious, and nothing else, even though I do have things to do.
I wonder what that means?
Am I afraid of the future?
Is that why I'm stalling by not doing anything?
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 8, 2024 17:31:04 GMT
Why the Paranormal so utterly bores me now
Watch the short video and see why the paranormal so utterly bores me now.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 21, 2024 17:52:38 GMT
It's Saturday! It's Saturday...what else can I say? The world continues to spin, and so does my head. I'll probably lay back down after this for a while. Already worked out, drank a few last night (stupid me) And now, I don't know...I'm a hostage to my own lazy habits and mind. I wish I could just stay in Jupiter all day, where it's always so safe, serene and calm. Time is moving way to fast, as of late. Anyways, it's Saturday.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 6, 2024 0:16:22 GMT
It's Still Saturday It's still Saturday. Would be nice if could pick on day of the week to constantly relive...I'd chose Saturday (Assuming not working on that day) Saturday is more mentally peaceful and relaxing than Sunday. Sunday seems more like a 'on deck' day, you're on deck to get socked in the face by Monday. Anyways, haven't done anything all day, and what I was possibly going to do, well, got out of doing that also. I'm just in full lazy mode. I'm really done with the future...tired of 'being strong', tired of hoping, wishing, that things will ever turn out in my favor. The future seems more like torture to me than anything else...I guess that's what age does to you, or some. Or better yet it's what being poor, and older, does to you. If rich and wealthy, than I'm sure the future is always a brighter place, filled with possibilities. And I've long stopped hoping, thinking, 'god', some mystical god, is going to make me rich or change my fortunes for the better. I realize now that I'm nothing to 'god'. Anyways, it's still Saturday.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 12, 2024 12:50:48 GMT
It's Saturday It's Saturday and I feel like I've awakened into a dungeon of my own creating or creation...one of bad choices over the years, or past year, like it's all just come to a head. But unlike in the movies, there's no one to rush in and save me from my bad decisions, and the uncertainty that's fueled by those bad decisions. There's no Cavalry that's going to rush in and save me, I'm just not that special anymore to anyone.  Nope, no saving cavalry for me, I'm totally on my own. I don't even know what it's like to actually be cared for anymore, haven't had that feeling in decades. Anyways, I've got this day to prepare for a trip, I trip I should be happy about, but my mood, instead, has me feeling very skeptical. I just don't think I'm equipped with the right mental tools to make it in this world anymore, or ever. It's more like I've just managed to stumble my way through life, day by day, a stumbling fool.
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