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Post by Jupiter on Jun 11, 2022 19:06:05 GMT
About to get up and out, it's raining out a bit. Just going to run to small corner store, get stuff, few items. it's been a slow start today, it's amazing how much 3 long days of a dull job can take from you and how long it takes to wake up from that work slump. Plus my bodies battling something internally. But I feel decent, plenty of energy, just my mind is a bit empty right now, no real ambition right now, no fight in me. I have no one to fight for at the moment. Anyways up and off to the store in the rain.  |
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 18, 2022 15:07:56 GMT
It's Saturday  It's Saturday, it's raining out, I'm sure the frogs and toads are happy, and the snails and worms. Me, it's my day off, and I think the only way I'm going to get anything done today, and counter the natural urge to sit back and do nothing, is to create a 'to do list', which will force me to accomplish tasks, both big and small, major and minor, in no particular order. The list will just get me into motion, otherwise all I feel like doing is nothing. It's Saturday, if reading this you made it, and so did I. The older you get the less you start taking days of the week for granted, the less you start taking life or time for granted period.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 18, 2022 20:34:59 GMT
Does religion turn some people into lunatics? Paranormal Saturday
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 26, 2022 0:21:02 GMT
It's Saturday  I really can't believe I'm home right now. I had to work today, but am off now. But the day just felt so long, and when at work, so far removed from who and what I really am, it's really like being another person when I'm at work, and you're different to everyone who sees you, no two people perceive you the same. But I'm home now, and so thankful to be here, away from it all, no traffic, nothing, just me and my quiet place and my creative mind. ---------------------------- And since not drinking, at the moment, I have more sustained energy. I slipped for a while there though, started drinking again in short spurts, but then caught myself, and saw where it was headed. I think my phase of heavy drinking is over. There was a time I never drank, never even thought about drinking, when younger and had a different mindset, but then, I don't know, I did one lonely night years and years ago, and hadn't stopped since. Drinking just opened me up out of a shy world I was living in, some of the memories I wouldn't take back for anything, while drunk and being silly. I did thinks only being drunk would allow me to do, while alone, like roller blading and other stuff. Alcohol, back then, just got me out, now I never go out anymore, again, I'm past that phase, but it's one I really do think I needed to go through since didn't when a bit younger, I needed to get it out of my system. Anyways, it's Saturday, I'm home, and that's good enough for me right now.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 26, 2022 20:37:59 GMT
It's Saturday  It's Saturday, spent the first part of day creating a podcast, and video on YT, that ate up a lot of time, now it's afternoon time and I still feel unfulfilled and a bit lonely. At this point i have no solution to my lonliness, none, other than just deal with it best I can. That aside, it's Saturday, and right now media all into that abortion stuff, which I could really care the less about, doesn't effect me one single bit. Although, people like me would love to be a parent, yet I see where women destroying perfectly good fetuses by the 10's of 1000's, so my question is why even have sex? If these women hate babies so much, why even engage in sex, why not just be lesbian, then won't have to worry about it. Don't want to a baby, then don't have sex, what's so hard about that?
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 26, 2022 20:43:52 GMT
I've got to check my email in a minute, and been avoiding it, cause someone responded that I emailed last week asking them to unpublish a book of mine cause they haven't done me right. And the reason why I'm avoiding that email cause I'm usually nice, I don't like conflict, but if they give me the wrong answer I'm afraid of what my reaction will be to them. I'm nice until I feel the person I'm responding to stops respecting me, then I turn into something odd.  I don't want to turn into that 'odd thing', cause it drains me, is draining, and not very productive, yet I can only take so much, especially when it comes to some one holding back my own prosperity. We shall see. |
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 6, 2022 10:45:14 GMT
Screw Microsoft edge for updating, and not saving my work, a project I was working on.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 6, 2022 10:46:30 GMT
I'm starting to hate todays world, the world of automated crap, more and more, and the humans who think that's OK.
I'm starting to hate tech.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 29, 2022 11:31:13 GMT
It may be Saturday, but to me it feels more like the last day of a 3 day sentence into hell.
Yes, i have to work today, but off for 3 days after.
So today simply feels like hell to me.
And that's sad actually, but that's how intrusive mindless work seems to my life now.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 12, 2022 12:18:20 GMT
Gotta work today, still sitting in bed, in a daze.
I just want everything to stop, time that is.
I just want, need, everything to stop and slow down for a while.
Life moves along to fast, and after a while stuff just stops making sense, at least when being dragged along from the bottom tiers of life.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 12, 2022 12:21:30 GMT
The only person I'm impressed with, is the one who pays my bills, and that would be myself.
Does that sound vain?
But it's true, in that I'm the only one busting my butt for me, no one else is, so why should I look up to anyone else?
I only look up to those who make my life easier, I suppose though, behind the scenes inventors of technology have made my life easier, so I guess I look up to inventors of technology that I use also.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 13, 2022 3:10:36 GMT
The older you get, the more brutal workdays seem to both your body, soul, and mind.
But it all depends on what you do, I suppose, and your role in it all.
Work is fine, I suppose, when in a Senior position, and telling others what to do.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 13, 2022 20:54:00 GMT
It's time to get up and go to the store, what a monumental task that is for me.
Means I have to get dressed, fix hair, ect ect.
How exhausting.
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 29, 2023 2:21:03 GMT
Had to work earlier today, in fact have only been 'home' for maybe an hour and a half.
Mood was a bit down when I got off work, so, I don't know, trying to build mood up again.
My job just has a negative effect on me now, has for a while....but usually when off, everything improves.
Right now just channel surfing on TV and eating some instant oatmeal.
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It's been years, since I've hung out with anyone on either a Friday or Saturday night, or any other night as far as that goes.
And watching a silly, older Godzilla movie from like the 50's....like the first one ever created.
Hey, whatever it takes to improve my mood.
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 29, 2023 2:26:17 GMT
Had to work earlier today, in fact have only been 'home' for maybe an hour and a half. Mood was a bit down when I got off work, so, I don't know, trying to build mood up again. My job just has a negative effect on me now, has for a while....but usually when off, everything improves. Right now just channel surfing on TV and eating some instant oatmeal. ------------------- It's been years, since I've hung out with anyone on either a Friday or Saturday night, or any other night as far as that goes. And watching a silly, older Godzilla movie from like the 50's....like the first one ever created. Hey, whatever it takes to improve my mood. Watching Godzilla stomp out humanity actually is kind of soothing now. |
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