Your inner self

Feel like I'm in a repeating nightmare of failure that will just never end.
They say, and I know, in order to cope with stuff or a situation you don't like, you have to change your attitude...but to me that's kind of like defeat.

You have to convince yourself that being 'abused' is OK...
And when I say being abused, I mean that in a broader symbolic way, as in anytime you're in a situation you don't like or that doesn't favor you or your interests, you're basically being abused and your physical time and energy are being exploited more so for another gain, or a companies gain.

For instance, I can never go back to a company where all I am is blind mindless labor, or have to 'cover up', as in wear safety gear etc.

I value looks, style, flair, fashion, and I'm sick of working for places where you have to hide who you are for some greater good or compliance...F that.

Do not bury me while I'm still alive.
I want to live and shine, I want people to see how good I can look, no more hiding me out in the back rooms or buried deep in a truck away from society...F that.

Whatever few years of physical prosperity I have left, I want to live and physically shine!