Lifes Journal

It's best to remain unpopular, cause the more popular you get the more 'sh-t' others bring your way.

It's OK for me to make others rich, prosper, through all my writings that draw views, but I can't allow 'self' to prosper?

How freagin selfish is that?

But that's the ruling class, anywhere you go.
And will always be that way no matter what until just simply 'buy' your own stuff, buy your own websites, buy, your own forums, buy your own radio station, buy your own this and that, where you make the rules that benefit 'you', that only makes sense.

Anyone who disagrees with that is a liar.

When will some learn that whenever I feel oppressed, I simply spread out, my presence widens, it's almost supernatural....

Then the next thing you know, my art, my expressions, which small minded bias people tried to suppress, suddenly becomes mainstream and is everywhere and on T-shirts and more.

I think it may be time for me to graduate, here's what I mean

When you use other peoples stuff, it's like being in their 'house' or stadium, or a player in the NFL, MLB, MLH, or whatever, although a 'player', not a owner.

I'm getting to point where want to 100% own all content I post, licensed type own.

And you only get that when you pay.

Where I make the rules that allow me to prosper.

And prospering is different for everyone, with me prospering is not nessisarily mean money.

Prosperity to me really means freedom of expression, without worrying about another person coming along and finding fault with what you've expressed, and tata telling to higher ups, thus making a fuss out of nothing.

People who do that always do one of a few things.

1. Exaggerate in order to get reaction from those in charge.

2. Speculate, they speculate on what they think 'your' intent is, and this is based on their own twisted value system 'not yours'.

So then the people who respond are like 'Better to be safe than ect', so shut down this feature or that feature to satisfy the 'rat'.

But it's not a 'moral' thing, rather a 'taste' thing.

Example, just because one doesn't like the design of a Porcha, doesn't mean Porcha's are bad or evil or immoral, it just means they don't have a taste for Porcha sports cars.


It's the same on here, some old hag see's art their withered body can't relate to anymore, so they deem in 'inappropriate'...yet same art, actually way worse art appears on Superbowl half time shows, plastered over TV commercials, in movies, everywhere that people eat and watch while eating dinner, but conditioned to see it as 'OK, since it's on TV'.

Anyways I'm wasting my time.

I need to buy my own forum software where I just don't have to worry about 'games' being played anymore.

(And yes, I can afford it)

All that being said I just feel it's time to graduate to bigger things, yes there'll be a slight tech learning curb, but so what, that's why we're alive is to learn stuff.

I've got way to much to share still, and never again do I want my capabilities to share whatever (as long as decent and respectful, cause that's just how I roll), but never again do I want my capabilities to share anything I find interesting interrupted with.

Whether a picture or a article, or educational link, or whatever, If I feel it needs to be shared so others can learn than so be it.

I don't need anyone or anything to be my filter, I'm my own filter.

I self govern, always have, if not, there'd be a trail of tears and pain behind me.

(Could run national add in U.S.A. today paper and post 'who has this person hurt, and you'd hear crickets)

Yet there is none cause I self govern.

Cause on the inside I'm clean, curious about life, yes, but clean.

It's funny how it's always these people in 'trust' positions who turn out to be 'dirty', when busted, and then aired on the news.

It's always people in positions of trust, who condemn others, are the ones who end up being busted in the news for odd stuff.

The accusers are always the guilty, it seems.
Just read the headlines and you'll see.

Can't sleep, so will post final post before rest

I've been doing a ton of reading this past hour about forums vs social media platforms, but reading articles from Web developers and more.

Many think forums are dead, and give their reasons, one being (as I've stated many times) heavy moderating by moderators (wish I could share link so you could read it yourself from fresh source and realize it's not just me who thinks this).

But I have a different take on forums, or the lay out, to me it's all what you do with them.

I do to forums what Rush Limbaugh did to AM Radio, I make them relevant again, wherever I go or start one

And if decide to create, buy, own forum, domain and all, will show people what I really mean when unleashed to express whatever (but again always clean stuff, provocative but clean)

And provocative only in the sense of being 'honest' about subject matter, not rude, but honest.

I can't help those who are offended by honesty.

Readers like honesty, I like honesty, God likes people who are honest, the devil prefers people who are dishonest.


That aside, my forum, forums, and 'ghost writers' live cause totally independent of other peoples thoughts, opinions or input.

The energy is self or internally generated.

Most forums die, cause they're totally dependent on user input or member input, mine are not, and is why they just keep growing and growing and growing.

Like a spirit or something, or expanding sun or star.

And instead of people tapping into that, after years and years of this phenom, all some can do is 'snip' at this or that, and take away features...how small, and then wonder why social media platforms keep biting into traditional forum audiences.

People don't want boring and square, people don't want to feel like they're sitting in Grandmas living room as she knits, and you sit there on the floor quiet and all.

I can, and still plan on taking forums to a whole new level, to keep generating readers, maybe not here since wings keep getting clipped, but certainly elsewhere.

A smart person would tap into my energy instead of trying to suppress it.

My forums are unique to the whole planet, dare anyone to find forums like mine,

Heck, I should be in the guiness book of world records

People never appreciate what's in their midst until it's gone, sadly that's the case most of the time.

Anyways, now ready for bed and dreams.

Well as promised myself, sort of branching off, and actually I should be way more mentally wore out than I am now, it not for coffee and tea.

Cause I've literally spent all day signing up for and trying to figure out some WP stuff, it's no joke for dummies.
Not that I'm a dummy, but let's face it, if one isn't steeped in HTML and CSS? and this and that, if one isn't steeped in that stuff 8 hours a day for years, than ye, you do fall a bit behind the curb.

But one thing I'm realizing now, and that is unless you learn it, will always be a 'slave' to other sites, or platforms when it comes to what you can and cannot share.

I mean that's all the internet is about is sharing information, sharing links, sharing images, sharing news, sharing this, sharing that, so if can't share anything online, if can't let others know of your presences, well, may as well be 'dead'.

Why do you think images sites so popular?, or review sites, where people review top 10 this, top 10 that, cause of the need and want to share!

And when, if, that tool taken away, so is your ability to expand.

And when I say 'share' I don't mean sharing dirty stuff, I don't roll that way, if I did roll that way you'd of known about it years ago, on here and other places.

I've had years and years to which to be dirty, if that's the type of person I really was.

Being on here is starting to feel like being locked in a closet, not that this is the only place I frequent, but just saying, all the views I generate on here, think If I had generated those views on my own personal 'page' or personal blog site, where would have built 'worth' for my writing and fiscally rewarded...I tell myself.

I didn't do so, cause never really took it seriously until last few years I guess.

So I've been allowing others to prosper off of my content, some of which as made it to mainstream.

Like the term 'Urban Hill Billies'...that's my term, yet some drag racing team took it from me.

No one used the term 'Urban Hill Billies until I invented it, and used it in some photos, long ago on 'Flckr' photo sharing site.

Another term 'Grace Under Fire'...and picture or portrait to boot, years ago I invented that term, yet now celebs use it, and other places, dated after I first invented it, but see how much I give away for free?

Years of writing on other peoples platorms, over a MILLION views if added up, yet not so much as a hello or thanks for those I generate add revenue so, instead penalized with loss of a few features do to someone mis interpiting a post or image do to their warped view of the world, not mine.

Cause clean people see clean things, but a dirty minded person can look at a can of Coca-Cola and see porno in that.

Bottom line, I can't spend rest of healthy enthused creative life tip toeing around other peoples sensibilities.

I just can't.

And no one who gets ahead does.

Not singers, artists, musicians, models, politicians, actors, performers, comedians, they thrive because they dared.

Even the person offended by whatever they were offended by on here, listens to musicians who actually, in real life, whether now or in the past, do things, I'd never morally dream of doing, and I garuntee you the same thing applies to the actors and actresses they admire, yet dare judge me on here for keeping it clean over all these years, and then not even face me to get clarification at whatever they were offended by?

This is the most rated 'G' collections of writings you'll probably find, this large, anywhere online.

So anyways, I can't play this game anymore of secret critics who don't say anything yet create chaos behind the scenes.

But when I own, buy, my own platform, again, there brains can explode, but there's nothing they can do about my expressive art, writings, or shared links, it's called the 1st amendment.

But sadly can really only exercise that right when you're the 'boss' or 'owner' of domain, or platform or company or ect.

Then people, readers, ect are free to come and go as they please.

And if they can't relate, than to bad, just like there's a lot of stone aged pre historic view points I can't relate to either.