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Post by Jupiter on Oct 1, 2023 5:03:51 GMT
October will soon be upon us Yes, I know it's not quite October yet, it's a few days away, but still, October, traditionally, has been my favorite month, the coziness of it. Sad though, that so many American traditions, or even my own traditions, are fading. And no telling what kind of 3rd world, criminal, underworld traditions so many lying immigrants are bringing to the U.S. Liberals are stupid as heck to believe all these military aged men from south of the boarder and around the world are fleeing persecution...they're lying!!...OK...any street person knows that. It's more dangerous in America, more crime here, than the countries they're fleeing from.But this Biden admin wants to destabilize the U.S. by flooding it with strangers. It's all apart of some master global plan, trust me on that. --------------------------- Anyways, didn't mean to get all political, but just saying, each year it's like harder and harder for me to enjoy just being an American with how society just keeps changing for the worst, and those changes are accelerated by the Biden demonic administration. I guess they're the real goblins of Halloween now..
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 4, 2023 21:06:55 GMT
How to make tough decisions
Here's what I'm learning about making tough decisions, but first there are two types of tough decisions
A. Decision that basically affects your own personal well being
B. Decision that will effect the well being of others around you.
For me, here's how I'm processing it in my mind
1. Never make a decision that will cause you to go broke, cause if can't take care of self, no one else will.
When broke, people forget favors quickly.
2. Prioritize Rent, or house payment, no matter what (food/water/shelter)
And that's basically it, anxiety usually comes when the decision we may or may not make, will harm us fiscally. Being broke is a terrible feeling, even if you had or have good intentions.
When broke, no one respects you.
3. Don't make decisions simply to impress others, especially when it involves money, cause again if lose money do to even making the right decision, you'll be hurting for many days and weeks and years to come.
(This applies to working class types who have less than 10 gran saved up, 10 gran can take years to save, but can be spent in days, or weeks, on stupid stuff, medical stuff, Attorney fees, ect)
Also, it depends on what type of support system you have around you, me, I have a very weak or non existant support system, if I go broke, and end up homeless or in dire straights, not a gdm soul in my life or orbit would care...they don't care now, why would they care if I hit upon hard times?
Anyways, that kind of sums up my current decision making situation.
Oh, also Pride, don't let pride be what makes you make a decision, if bad, than change your mind, no matter how many people you told were going to do something, if it doesn't feel right, don't do it.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 5, 2023 3:26:57 GMT
Drilled I just created this portrait of self moments ago, titled 'Drilled', I mean what else, since holding drill in hands. It's actually an older portrait that I kind of spoofed up. I enlarged the feet and head area, which probably makes me look younger in portrait than I really am. It's been a while since I've taking new fresh camera portraits, like I used to do....I think video has made me lazy and gifs. With video, you just move around and then simply freeze frame and crop whatever moment you like, where as with the camera, you sit and pose...and maybe out of 10 pics, you're lucky if 1-3 pass the muster. Anyways, just bored, killing time (actually time is killing me), but while here I continue to cave write on the walls.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 9, 2023 17:52:49 GMT
Sometimes maybe it's OK to just relax, chill, and do nothing...that's a luxury actually.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 18, 2023 1:20:23 GMT
October is upon us, already half way gone, wow!  Art, self-portraits, have always allowed me to escape and relax whatever my current reality happens to be. Some people have very good current realities that they love, but others, as myself, aren't always comfortable with the current reality of my life. Most of the good and bad takes place within our own minds. That being said, that's a 'me' portrait from a few years ago, but I changed some things. You won't find such a person in real life (Accept maybe in the Lord of the Rings as some larger hobbit or something), in that I enlarged the head area and the feet. I've always used my own body as a canvass, to stretch and explore my physical range.Sad thing is, is that in real life, most people would never imagine I have such artistic range, cause when I go to work, I just look like any other average blue collar tweeb. ---------------------- I'm older now, but glad, for a few years, I really explored portrait art, when still young enough to make it fun to self to do so, and the fun thing about digital art, or help, is that now you can stretch your youthful glow even further than if just had to rely on film development like years ago. Remember the days of taking all your private photos to the drug store and allowing a stranger to develop your pictures? Anyways, you gotta keep having fun in life or you'll become old and cranky Happy October and soon, Happy Halloween!
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 25, 2023 1:47:35 GMT
What's wrong with me??  What's wrong with me? Lately, the last few days, I've fallen into a odd mood, all I want to do is take pics and video of myself, as if trying to preserve self for long after I'm gone. Is the end, for me, immanent or near?, is that why I've been so anxious lately? Or does it have to do with a trip I'm taking soon, and when I take the trip, this side of myself, this more colorful side, I'll have to bury, but it's the side that has kept my spirit alive for years, when all others abandoned me. When I have to bury my colorful side, I feel like I'm suffocating or something. Humans are some of the shallowest, small minded so-called intelligent creations of 'God' or the creator.Most people have no idea who I am, they won't allow me to be 'me', instead, once I leave my place, I simply become what their small narrow bigoted minds think I am or want me to be. It's why I know God is in no one, for if God, the all-knowing God, were in others, no one would ever fear or mis-judge me in a negative way. Truth is, the only god most people know is their own flesh and blood, which is tainted with all sorts of ingrained biases and fears and superstitions about others. Anyways, I'm still here and still wacky and dacky, but in a fun creative way, I just wish more others could see that. Everyone is so tightly wound up in today's society. Law, order, and strict crime policies would probably bring trust back into communities again, but as long as criminals allowed to terrorize others, no one feels safe out on the streets, or even in their own neighborhoods and or homes now. But at least you're safe here in the Jupiter blogosphere, which is simply a quiet collection of thoughts that go back many years. I library of thoughts, so to speak.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 29, 2023 15:04:37 GMT
About to travel soon, and have never felt more insecure about doing so in many years About to travel soon, and wow, it's not something I want to do at all. I booked flight while drunk or drinking, so of course then I was gutsy, but now, heck now. Traveling scares the hell out of me now days.I used to love flying, traveling, but that was years ago when society was way more sane. Now, everyone's gone looney. Fights break out, the mentally ill hide their illness until aboard airplane in mid-flight.
I'm safe, have been safe, cause for the last decade I stick to my small little world or predictability, work, home, work, home, grocery store, work, home..ect. Now though, will be veering 1000's of miles outside of my safe comfort zone, and ye, I'm nervous about it, especially every time I read the headlines of all the crazy stuff going on now days, in public spaces. Not to mention a mentally ill pilot tried turning off airplane engines, in mid-flight, a few weeks ago.. abcnews.go.com/US/details-emerge-after-off-duty-pilot-allegedly-shut/story?id=104247388And then being a person of color makes it even worse for me, in that going to a majority 'W' area, which is fine, I'm fine with all white communities, I feel safer there, but, but, do to all the negative headline news, my nightmare is for them to associate me with all the crap they see on social media. When people fear you, they become hostile, and when hostile, they behave in ways that are dangerous to you. I'm totally for law and order (even voted for Trump, twice), but when 'B' or person of color, no matter how you voted, you instantly get lumped in with being a drug user or a thug or just a danger to whatever community you're in....and that's just the fact jack. And to be honest with you, I can't blame them, or anyone, who makes that association. Everyone is fleeing Democrat states and cities and headed to small rural towns (where I'm from actually). But when I return, they'll think I'm the new one, and not realize, no, I was there first, it's you all 'Johny come lately' types, that are the intruders into the heartland. Yep, now you have all these snotty nosed suburban uppity types fleeing to the very small towns they used to laugh about, and then once there, they think they own the place or places. Oh well, society is changing, always does, and the older you get the scarier change becomes. --------------------------- In a week or so, I'll be in for the adventure, not of my life, but of my older adult years life. (When younger, such a trip would of been nothing to me) But society is not what it was when I was younger, when criminals go locked up and stayed in jail/prison, and where our boarder was controlled, and where small towns were still cheap affordable places to live...now you go to small towns and some have been completely taking over by migrants from Somalia or ect. Everything is changing, and not sure if I'm equipped to deal with these changes, but you know what, the world stands still for no one, not even me.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 30, 2023 18:25:21 GMT
Happy Halloween!  Happy Halloween! Even though I'm not really feeling it this year, to many real life worries have bogged down my mind...that's my own fault, I suppose. That aside, it is Halloween eve, for those lucky enough to be able to get into the spirit of the season, and who are lucky enough to have fun people around you who are receptive to it all. At this moment in time, as in right now, I feel Halloween, ghouls and goblins can only be an improvement for the way my life has been going lately.👻🎃 I'm tired, and just wish things, life, society, could be the way I remember it when younger, people are so mean now, social media has just brought out the worst in humanity. Happy Halloween for those of you able to enjoy it...
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 30, 2023 22:49:15 GMT
Sometimes I feel so tired, and then realize still have so far to go  I'm tired, tired of losing, tired of making the wrong decisions in life, tired of being alienated from caring people, and instead cursed to have uncaring people in my life circle. I'm tired of drinking, and the after effects of, I'm tired of not being able to focus on stuff long enough to accomplish anything meaningful. I'm tired of always picking up after myself, I'm tired of my job, I'm tired of not being loved. I'm tired of a lot of things, tired of being poor, tired of not being able to help those few I still do care about. Tired of social medias bias, tired of political corruption, tired of cars, traffic, industrial noise. I'm just tired, yet still have a ways to go, whatever am I going to do??
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 31, 2023 14:12:13 GMT
It's Halloween.The world is becoming a uglier place to me, or I should say my own personally reality is what's becoming uglier to me, as such, I'm gonna have to make a attitude shift. Yep, when things become unbearable to 'you', that's when you have to shift your attitude in order to deal with it. Sometimes you may even have to go into 'robot mode'...  What that means is setting aside emotions, and just doing what 'you' have to do to get through whatever season you're going through. I'm going to have to go into robot mode for a while, and put feelings aside, feelings of fear, anxioty, ect. I've got to go into robot mode, or Spock/Vulcan mode, to get through this period.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 23, 2023 15:18:37 GMT
It's Thanksgiving day It's T-day, again. And as usual, I will spend it alone (used to it) And I plan on staying sober today (that's the plan anyways) I need to get my body and mind right, again. I'm not happy or sad today, I'm just here, and glad I'm not working. Would rather be bored at home than working a job I can't stand. I may go workout later, in the park, do a few laps, stretch. I guess I'm still thankful for my ______. I often feel if you say what you're thankful for aloud, than evil or god or some other entity will then take it away from you. Anyways, not much else to say, a bit cold inside of place this morning, with space heater blowing at legs. Just got up, sat up, following a night and morning of extensive dreams, I mean my gosh, even Sean Hannity was in one of my dreams...yuk. I got two turkey legs I just through in a bot and boiled a few nights ago, I'll eat those today, but I do also have a taste for some cranberries, but not the gel kind....I may have to settle for cranberry flavored juice instead. Anyways, time to get on with the day that I'm still here and alive to do as I please with. Oh, and if want to stay in a decent mood today, just avoid the news headlines. I think Satan has taken over all news agencies...lol.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 30, 2023 3:41:41 GMT
People either have the capacity to care about you, or they don't.
If they care about you, than nothing else matters, if they don't care about you, than nothing you do will ever make them care about you.
So just move on with your life, if can.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 4, 2023 17:24:02 GMT
Taking off from the Lewiston, ID Nez Perce airport(United Express)
I don't enjoy flying, like I used to.
I'd rather drive a brand new rented car now, than fly, but time doesn't always allow that.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 4, 2023 23:30:54 GMT
Landing at the Denver, CO International Airport (very large airport)
Video came out a bit grainy after loading it to YT.
Landings are the worst part of flying, cause when pilots hit the reverse thrusters to slow plane down, it always feels like the plane is trying to tip over.
Years ago all I dreamed of becoming was a pilot, not anymore.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 11, 2023 22:36:36 GMT
I just ordered one of these auto battery jumper kits Just ordered a NOCO auto battery boost, I mean everyone needs one of these, cause depending on who you are, it can be hard to get a batter jump for your car if at a grocery store or anywhere else. Especially if a tall, older or even younger B guy, who's going to give you a battery boost these days? Everyone will think you're trying to rob them or set them up, so it's best to come prepared and have one of these babies in your vehicle. Ordering mine from Amazon, and looked at reviews, liked what I saw. I'll feel much better knowing this thing is in my vehicle, but because it's so handy, and costs around 100 bucks, I'll probably take it with me inside every time not driving either vehicle, would hate for a thief to steal it.
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