After work thoughts

I fight like heck to get off and home, then when finally do get home, I like zone out.

It's totally amazing how fast an hour goes by when you get home, after work, and only have 3 max hours to just relax and get a few things done.
After work time just fly's by.
Life fly's by, is why I wish I could just slow everything down.

Just got in from work, crabby after work mood as usual, and to compound it I can hear the audio of either the TV or radio of person below me, which I thought they were supposed to have moved out already.

An older person.
Don't know if that's them or somone else, cause in all the time they've lived beneath me, I've never ever heard music or sound from that room.

When they leave, I won't miss them at all, not in the least bit.

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My lease expires soon, and well, I haven't made plans to move, I mean why should I?
But one bad neighbor could drive me away, cause one thing I need when I get in is dead silence.
And what if after I sign new lease, leasing office movies in a noisy person right after I sign lease?
I would literally go mad.

Cause when I come in from work, all emotionally and physically beat up, the last thing I want to hear is another persons music through the walls.
Again I've been lucky so far, but will that luck last?

Who knows.

I'm just so not cut out for this world around me anymore.
I'm more like a hermit now (just not as old as one), who just wants to be left alone.

That's probably cause those who end up dwelling around me just always turn out to be so dern undesirable..

Maybe if I lived around attractive people with a bit of personality, I'd feel different.

Most music just sounds like noise to me now.
And I think it's probably that elderly ladies adult daughter or some other relative, or daughters boyfriend or something, helping them to pack up their stuff.
Cause they type of music I'm hearing is definitely not the type of music that elderly lady would be listening to.

I never listen to music when I'm home, only lame brains listen to hours and hours of music, no wonder Americans, or the majority of, are so dumb, dense and stupid.
When I'm home it's 'talk radio', or educational stuff, but never hours of just mindless stupid brainless music...which turns your brains into mush.

And I'm so beyond music making me feel 'cool'.
I'm just not into that fake ego crap anymore.
To me 'cool' is when you've actually succeeded at something, accomplished something, but it's not listening to thumpity thump thump music while barely being able to pay your bills.

Just got in from work, it's cold out now, freezing type cold, but no wind.

My mood is usually stable up until around the last hour or so of the job, then for some reason I tend to get cranky or depressed or both, not sure why.

Either way, I have 3 more days of this crap.
My world, my current world, seems to be coming to an end soon, as in within months, 3-5 months, the world of stability.

Trying not to think of it, cause anger will destroy you, it will eat you up on the inside like rot.

That aside, I have maybe an hour or so to just try to relax and chill before bed.

Long day, it's late or (early, a bit past 12 midnight).
Not much to say, life is wall to me right now, with grease on it, so I can't climb up and out of my circumstances, or so it seems, not in a way I envisioned anyways.

Anyways, it's late, just writing this down so that later I can know I was here today.

I get home, at times, feeling so 'spent'...but then again, my current job is very long hours, but only 3 days a week.
Not sure how much longer that will work, cause everything going up in price, except pay.