It's Friday

It's Friday night, hyped up over Trumps speech, and now, well, I'm bored, his life makes my own life seem so bland and dull.

Yep, it's Friday alright



Yep, it's Friday alright, and by gosh, I'm still here, some how, some way, I'm still here and still apart of this conscious stream.

That being said, this morning got up and fried some eggs...I think it's the first time I've done that since my other apartment caught fire.
The stove top oven I use now is out of wack. They heating elements are all dysfunctional, and only go super hot or off.

And my a/c fan won't turn off, so have to turn the breaker off.
Not sure how much longer I'll be here so haven't made any maintenance requests.

Took a late night walk last night, it was slightly raining, more like drizzling, had umbrella with me. It was a nice relaxing walk.
I just can't come home and stay cramped up inside, I don't know how people do it, come home and just stay inside the whole time...not me, I gotta movie, walk, bike.
Anyways, after this will groom, get dressed and go to the store and spend money.
Then, who knows, I don't have the most exciting life...I'll probably study, and finish film school related stuff.
Film school my azz, more like film sham, online course.
I pay the salaries of others and in turn I get nothing...oh well.

It's Friday, I'm here, so may as well live while alive.

Reality can really bit hard at times



Reality, at least mine, can really bite hard at times.
I guess some people can have very good pleasant realities, or we all can, at times, I suppose.

But then there are other times when our own personal realities absolutely and totally suck and bite, as I feel mine kind of does right now.
I guess it depends on what you want, wanted out of life, and what you expected of yourself to get you there.

Some people do get more breaks than others, and other people, well, no breaks, just bites, big chunks of reality takes big chunky bites out of your behind.

All one can really do is write about it as a way of relieving built of anxiety.

And 'Time' also sucks, when reality sucks, so does time, which simply delivers you more of the reality that keeps biting.

Oh well, what can you do about it.

It's Friday night, and I feel very relaxed right now, for some reason



It's Friday night, around 9 pm, and I feel very relaxed right now for some reason.
Is there ever really a reason to feel relaxed anymore?
Well, right now I do, and not sure how long it'll last.

Haven't worked in a while, not sure what tomorrow will bring, but there's still something always soothing about the first hours of the weekend when all the business vipers are asleep.
I know today, everything is 24/7, but still the weekends, mainly Friday and Saturday, just feel like a safety zone from it all.
Stuff you can put off until Monday when the dreaded machine reawakens.

But as of now, this moment, I still feel calm. But like most, my mood or moods can change on a dime, for the better or worse, usually for the worst.
Sometimes just what you eat can change your mood in a good or bad way.
Bad food with toxic chemicals, can bring you down, good healthy food can bring you up.

No booze in my system, that's one reason I feel so calm, without booze in my system, body is better able to absorb nutrients that effect our moods.

Anyways, since not drinking, I'll be able to get more done this night than I normally would if had drank earlier.
I think should the day come, the season come, when I stop drinking, like could be like heaven for me.
I realize now heaven comes from within, cause when in the right calm mood and have the right outlook, you can tolerate just about anything.
And it helps if your environment is quiet so you can relax.

It's Friday, Nov 1st of 2024