It's Friday

I won $500.00 today on a scratch off ticket.
How did it make me feel?
So, so.

I'm pretty much useless on work day nights; I come home so tired and spent, that I just don't feel like doing anything, especially when have to work the next day.

See, here's the deal, when I work, I don't work your standard 8 hour day, like start at 7 am, off by 4 pm, for 5 days a week, ect.
No, when I work, I may get up at around 6-6:30 am, leave by maybe 7:30, then home by 9-10:30 pm.

So away for a while, then come home tired...there's no evening life with a schedule like that, but the good thing is is it's only 3 days a week, and that's why I tolerate it.

But not sure for how much longer.

3 days on, 4 days off, not bad, as long as make use of your off time.

But I do kind of miss having a after work evening life, cause when home by 5 pm, that leaves you plenty of time to do whatever.

Oh well, no use fussing about it now to myself, one more day to go then off for, yep, 4 days.

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Right now, of all things, watching some historical documentary about Hitlers rise during the Rosavelt Presidency, like the mid 1930's and all.
Has anything changed?
I don't think evil ever goes away, evil simply puts on different costumes depending on what era it is.

If society, or the Government would like give me 500,000 dollars to just move away from everyone, way out in the middle of the forest or mountains, than I would.

I just want to win the lottery now

I realize now, me following the rules, working hard, ect, yield me about as much chance at prosperity as winning the lottery.

The older you get, the more you just tire of working just to work.
As you age, and been working hard all your life, who are you trying to prove anything to anymore?
Past a certain age, all you're doing is wearing your body out.

If hard work, blue collar hard type of work, yielded riches, then there'd be millions of millionaires in America.

Smart work makes you rich, hard work just wears you out eventually.

It's Friday night, and like a older geek, I'm home alone, after working 3 long days in a row.

Now, will ust sit back, lay back, and watch a scary movie on Freebee on Amazon...this one here...



The trailer seems pretty intense, but we know how that goes, trailers vs the actual movie.
But ye, I'll give it a try on Amazon, but with commercials in it...yuk.

It's Friday



Yep, it's Friday, and a lot has changed in my life since I last posted in the Friday section.
1. Old place is no more do to apartment complex fire.
2. I'm in new place now, it's smaller.
3. I'm in a type of accelerated film school.

It's impossible to sum up everything that has occurred to me, in my life, and the emotional turmoil it's had on me, in 3 steps.

But I'm still here, sometimes I wonder why, but since I AM still here, I have to keep busy until I'm not.
Since in film school, I have a schedule now, responsibilities to others.

I have to grow up now, in certain ways...not that I wasn't grown before, but before was basically living a dead schedule, now a few others are involved in my schedule and tasks.
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I sleep on an air mattress now.
I still drink, sad to say, but ye, I still drink, more than I probably should, still.

It's not that I'm always drunk or drinking, but when I do drink, I drink (at least to my body)
Sometimes 4 beers feel like 8 beers, and sometimes 8 beers feels like 2.

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Anyways, the day has begun, and I'm behind on my lessons, so let me get going.

I should have just bought a place in the woods, dropped a RV on it, bought a semi-truck, and just lived my life as a hermit, but no, stupid me had to go join some film school, and now, wow, I've probably made a mess of things again, in that when new, the money isn't all that good.

What a day.

I just got back and I feel like I've drank liquor but I didn't.
But I did eat natural made organic food at someones house.

I just feel weird, not cause of the meal, but other things, the day moved so fast since the minute I got up today.
Airport, bank, airport rental, didn't work, drove cross town to pick someone up, back to airport, Savannah, GA, dinner at their elder sisters house, then there, then back to house, dropped them off, then drove back here, gas station, then airport rental return, then got lost at airport in car, then mail box, then finally home.

I just feel odd, lot's of information smacking me in the face today.
I don't think I could be a politician who fly's around from city to city daily, or a rock star who does the same.

Maybe I'm just to old for all that movement or just not use to it.
I mean look at Trump...like him or not, the guy has more energy than some people 1/4 his age.

I guess you just have to be driven and hungry and used to that type of life...I'm not, I'm a homebody.
I'm most comfortable at home, but haven't always been that way.