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Post by Jupiter on Sept 6, 2022 22:59:28 GMT
This is kind of funny for Gen x'rs
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 27, 2022 17:00:18 GMT
I drank way to much yesterday night.
Lately I've been relapsing, and not sure why, loneliness?
I don't know, I just wish I'd stop.
My body is amazing, but one day, if keep abusing it, it won't be so amazing.
Although, oddly enough, beer or alcohol is really the only bad consumption habit I have.
I just need to get my act together for my own sake.
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Off today, but hurricane will be slamming parts of Florida tomorrow, and company I work for still has us working.
It's a driving job, so instead of routes going towards Tampa, routes are going up north.
Talk about greed...do they not realize hurricanes move?
Traffic flow changes as emergency vehicles head towards the storm, and other flee the storm.
Not a good day to be driving a commercial vehicle in my opinion.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 13, 2022 16:06:24 GMT
Drank yesterday night, well all day really and into the night, and as usual made a fool out of myself over the phone and email.
I wish I could take yesterday back, but I can't.
I guess I'll stumble up, go to the kitchen and grab a small meal of short ribs that I bought yesterday.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 13, 2022 20:09:21 GMT
Everything feels so still and silent to me today, on this grey sky day.
I wish I had the whole week off.
About to force self to get dressed and go stumble up to the corner store.
I need groceries, but to unmotivated to even go shop for food right now.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 25, 2023 17:17:20 GMT
It's Tuesday  Time to go face my own reality, which can be scary when always have to face issues in life alone. Most people will never know what it's like to never ever have any emotional support on anything. Most people, no matter how lonely they say they are, still family they can call, a friend or two, social media following, ect. But most just don't know what it's like to have absolutely no one to lean on, ever. To fill out a job application and have no one to put in the 'Contact in case of emergency' section. Very few people, functioning people that is, understand or can comprehend that time of alienation an loneliness. Not that being alone always makes you feel lonely. Sometimes being alone feels great, but there are still times when it's nice, comforting, knowing another is there and has your back. Oh well, I'm not so blessed in that area, that aside, time to go face a pivotal point in 2023, will I be allowed to stay here another year or will I have to move? Enough procrastinating on my part, let me get this stress wall behind me.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 25, 2023 18:05:15 GMT
⬆️⬆️⬆️ Continued from above Well, I guess I still got some time to decide if I still want to stay here, do I? I mean where would I move? I'm only 4.5 miles from my job, that's half the battle is not having a long commute.  But maybe, for the fun of it, I'll look around for another week. Where I stay now is quite and relatively peaceful. I call it paradise in 'Da' hood'. Now days, since housing projects tore down, ghetto minded types have spread out everywhere, so almost no matter where you move, you still have to deal with that same ghetto/hood mindset of people. These single Mothers, they move into nicer areas, and bring that up to no good sons with them, that's the problem. |
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Post by Jupiter on May 23, 2023 13:46:58 GMT
Well, another Tuesday has been given to me, so what shall I do with today?
What will today do with me?
What does fate have in store for me today?
Who will I encounter?
Should I buy some lottery tickets?
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Either way, I should probably get dressed, up and out.
But where is there to go?
When lived in same area for so long, you've already been everywhere.
And when have older used vehicles, it's no fun driving to far away, in fear car may break down and just compound issues of the day.
So what shall I do today?
Hmm.
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Post by Jupiter on May 23, 2023 13:50:00 GMT
Maybe volunteer my time?
Seek out a part time other job, one I enjoy? Nah.
______ with myself?
I don't know, just kind of bored.
I think I may have met someone, but to early to really know.
The scariest most uncertain part about any new relationship is the first few months.
You have to get used to having someone else in your life, and then there's always the fear they'll find out something about you and just leave, or that someone will turn them against you.
If you make it through the first few months, it gets smoother from there, usually.
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Post by Jupiter on May 30, 2023 12:48:24 GMT
I feel really without purpose right now.
There's a word for that that slips me at the moment.
I just feel 'done', like what else am I supposed to do in life? other than just wake up and exist.
I just seem to ultimately fail at everything.
I try stuff, can never garner support or interests, and so nothing happens, other than I waste money.
I've all but given up on love and romance..I hate the job I work, so what else is there in life to do?
I had the ads, ads seem like demons to me, in that no matter how bad your feeling, stupid ads think your only purpose in life is to wake up and buy stuff.
This profit only driven society is sick.
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Post by Jupiter on May 30, 2023 22:43:30 GMT
Not feeling much of anything today  Just not feeling much of anything today, and I have to work tomorrow, which makes it even kind of worse. No worse feeling than going back to work with unresolved inner emotions. And it's gross to think that work, a job, is the only thing that gives you purpose in life. I guess that's fine if have a career type of job, but if just have some hourly wage, punch the time card type of job, ahh. ============================ I've gotta reset my life, just not sure how, I mean I know how, but have limited funds to do so. I'm ending one chapter (radio show which aired once a week) and well, I suppose I should begin another chapter, but what will this next chapter be about? I've had so many failed chapters up to this point. I guess the chapters of my life could all be titled failed...failed, chapter one, failed, chapter two, failed, chapter three and so forth. Now I'm probably on like failed chapter 30 or more. Where we end up in life has less to do with our raw talent, and more to do with the path you take, and those you're around, and institutions you belong to, and other pedigree type of stuff. This 'raw talent' type of stuff is for the movies. If people don't like you, they won't give you a chance or help you out, regardless your talent or skill set. Anyways, if not for me writing on and about today, it would be yet another meaningless day in the history of my life that I'd have no reason to remember other than me writing thoughts down about it.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 6, 2023 14:58:08 GMT
It's Tuesday  It's Tuesday, about to go grocery shopping here in a bit. It's still early in the day, not noon yet. I feel rested and over all pretty decent, better than I deserve to feel. I've cut way back on my drinking, but probably still not enough. I always seem too fall into the trap of, I'll goes days, maybe a week, without a drink, then I'll feel wonderful, and then tell self.. 'Hey, why not have a beer or two, after all, since you're not addicted, what will a few drinks hurt? And besides, you feel great and or in wonderful shape'... Is the lie or truth I end up telling myself. But as of now, this morning, I feel decent, my body does, but hey, being fit and healthy is more than half the battle. -------------------------------------- My body is wonderful, it's me, or usually our spirits inside, that do things that prevent our bodies from thriving. Our bodies always want us to heal, but we always do things to thwart that process, as in drugs, drinking, smoking, junk food, not exercising, stress, and so forth. Oh well, it's a Tuesday and it's summer, time to go shopping. I ended my account on twitter. Twitter was becoming a big mosh pit of negativity. Who needs it, I don't. Time to clear the mind and start anew.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 6, 2023 15:04:50 GMT
It's Tuesday It's Tuesday, about to go grocery shopping here in a bit. It's still early in the day, not noon yet. I feel rested and over all pretty decent, better than I deserve to feel. I've cut way back on my drinking, but probably still not enough. I always seem too fall into the trap of, I'll goes days, maybe a week, without a drink, then I'll feel wonderful, and then tell self.. 'Hey, why not have a beer or two, after all, since you're not addicted, what will a few drinks hurt? And besides, you feel great and or in wonderful shape'... Is the lie or truth I end up telling myself. But as of now, this morning, I feel decent, my body does, but hey, being fit and healthy is more than half the battle. -------------------------------------- My body is wonderful, it's me, or usually our spirits inside, that do things that prevent our bodies from thriving. Our bodies always want us to heal, but we always do things to thwart that process, as in drugs, drinking, smoking, junk food, not exercising, stress, and so forth. Oh well, it's a Tuesday and it's summer, time to go shopping. I ended my account on twitter. Twitter was becoming a big mosh pit of negativity. Who needs it, I don't. Time to clear the mind and start anew. |
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 13, 2023 15:18:53 GMT
It's Tuesday again  Going to get dressed and force self to go workout, if not, I'll go nuts just sitting here and probably start getting fat. So, my inner self is telling my lazy self to get up and out, 'it'll do ya some good'.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 14, 2023 0:20:19 GMT
Think I'm just going to eat some noodles, get fat, sleep, and watch a movie.
It's raining out, life seems like a staged joke to me right now.
Humans are rotten, and I highly doubt 'Jesus' died for any of us.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 14, 2023 0:36:51 GMT
When at work, I see people stranded on side of the road, I cannot pull over and help, since in a large commercial vehicle, yet see everyone else, in their small cars, just casually drive by.
Yet Jesus died for that?
When the majority of people can't, won't, even pull over when see stranded motorist on the interstate, be they male or female.
Americans aren't great, the Constitution is, but not individual Americans.
In Fact, it's the Constitution that protects us from each other.
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