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Post by Jupiter on Jan 10, 2022 14:23:04 GMT
It's Monday  Yep, it's Monday alright.
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 10, 2022 14:26:36 GMT
Yep, it's Monday, and it's grey or gray out, but at least, at least, I don't have to work today. I'm lucky in the sense that current job schedule always has me off on Mondays, thank goodness for that. But yep, it's for sure most definitely Monday, what shall I get into on this dampy, soggy, wet day.  |
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 24, 2022 23:24:21 GMT
It's Monday.
Odd day, went flying earlier, paid for a tour ride, pretty nerve racking actually.
I use to love flying when younger, now, not so much.
I went flying, but time just swallowed it all up and now it's behind me.
I filmed it though.
Now back home alone again.
My mood is just weird as of late, am I forgetting how to be happy?
Or like today, hung out with someone, the Lady I went flying with, but after and before, it just felt odd to me cause not use to hanging out with someone in real life outside of official job duties, it just felt weird.
I'm just use to typing in thoughts and being done with it, what I'm not use to anymore is hanging out with anyone.
Today really forced me to examine myself, where I"m going, what I want out of life anymore, others, and so forth.
My expectations vs reality.
Friends vs those who never were, monsters actually.
Those who return you calls, or better yet call you from time to time vs those who never call you unless you call them.
Life's all about making adjustments, social adjustments, fiscal adjustments ect.
Anyways, glad I'm off tomorrow, cause I really do need tomorrow off.
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 31, 2022 14:07:13 GMT
Big bad Monday is here  And Monday has arrived like a bat out of hell, yes, Monday is here. I think Monday and Sunday are evil twins, the two gloomiest days of the week for many. -------------------------------------------- Today is here, and today will just remind me of how unsufficient I am at getting anything done. I'm sure I will lose today on many fronts. Ground hog day of failure. What a way for me to start the day, with that mindset.
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Post by Jupiter on Feb 7, 2022 19:52:55 GMT
Finally got a post office box again, finally, been wanting to do that for at least a year now.
I'm terrible at putting things off.
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Post by Jupiter on Feb 8, 2022 4:44:55 GMT
Well Mondays almost over. After a certain time of the day, it just becomes time to do something fun. Been working off of a 'to do list' pretty much all day, but after a while you just want to do what you want to do, and not what's on the 'to do list'.  |
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Post by Jupiter on Mar 8, 2022 2:31:11 GMT
Boring dull Monday.
It can get kind of addictive deleting all the cookies in settings, stuff nerdy people do when bored, like I am now.
Since I stopped drinking, not as crazed, but have more energy to do stuff.
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Post by Jupiter on Mar 14, 2022 14:29:29 GMT
OK, woke up, have done nothing but type and write and ponder over life.
Now time to take a nap.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 26, 2022 3:20:03 GMT
Odd day, dull day, by most peoples standards.
Started off the day, cash in hand, so to speak, to go buy used truck just sitting on lot, then get there and another fella beat me to it.
Talk about disappointing.
Cause you know how it is, you spend days, even weeks, trying to convince self of which car to get, and so when finally set your mind to one, and someone else beats you to the jump, it's a set back, cause then have to start all over.
And used cars, especially pick up trucks, are going quick.
And I want to pay cash, not into payments...I mean even payments on remainder of balance, say 2-3 grand, that still means monthly payments for 2 or less years, that's a long time, I'd rather just wait until ready, have cash in hand, and buy out right, nothing worse than making payments, it just sinks my moral, especially if making them on an older used vehicle.
And then current vehicle I have begin acting up and the worst time.
But I didn't panic, I took it to Autozone for free engine diagnoses, and it was something simple, hard to get to but simple.
Many don't realize Auto Zone will check your 'check engine' light for free, and they'll give you a print out.
That way when go to real mechanic you can see if mechanic is being straight with you or not.
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Post by Jupiter on May 9, 2022 12:39:04 GMT
I woke up and looked in the mirror and just felt old and looked flat.
But I think that's what hours of mindless work does to you, speaking of the previous day.
Cause when I have a string of off days, when I'm off, and wake up, I never feel or look that flat to self.
Hard mindless work is good for you my azz.
Hard mindless work will send you to your grave early, that's what it will do.
And all the people that say hard work is good for you, notice they all work in management or ect.
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Post by Jupiter on May 16, 2022 22:22:57 GMT
It's Monday  It's Monday, and I think I'm going to give Disney + a try. Ye I know, I know, the politics of their admin, but that aside, they didn't write or direct the movies Disney now owns. I miss my Star Wars series, and comic book series, and more...the X-men. Just seems Disney has bought out all the good studios with all the good movies. The movies that use to be on Netflix are now on Disney +. So ye, I'm going to give Disney + a shot, why not, life is short and I'm only getting older. I didn't live this long just to live a dull drabby life, why not enjoy life while I can. 
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Post by Jupiter on May 16, 2022 22:58:55 GMT
continued from above ⬆️⬆️⬆️
I now have Disney +, and also learned for an extra 6 dollars you can add Hulu to that subscription, so I did, why not.
Cause lately, for like the last 6 months, I've been having a hard time finding decent movies to watch.
YouTube movies are hit and miss, and when you do find one, you can't just sit back and relax and watch it do to the constant commercial interuption.
And I'm not will to subscribe to YT, cause of the way they burry peoples videos and so you don't get no views...like how twitter does.
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Post by Jupiter on May 30, 2022 19:06:16 GMT
I can see myself sliding back into wanting to drink a bit more again, as the joy of being sober begins to wear off. When I first stopped drinking it seemed like my health improved, and it did, muscle pain went away, which I think is do to muscle parasites. But now, even while sober, the pain is there, all the time, and I don't know, when at home, off from work, drinking seems to be the only thing that takes my mind off of the annoying constant pain on left side of upper arm and around shoulder blade area. And trying to go to a doctor that knows anything is near impossible, you have to see a specialist doctor for pain, and trying to get one of those means have to get a referral and waste this day and that day going here and going there, what a nightmare. I never go to the doctor, don't even have insurance, but need to sign up for VA stuff, why not, everyone else floods the system, time I capitolize on it to. Anyways, a pretty dull boring Memorial day Monday.  |
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 14, 2022 2:40:50 GMT
It's Monday It's Monday, at least I think it's still Monday, it's dark where I'm at. I started off the day feeling demoralized, mainly cause I drank last night, and vomited, and called a few numbers and the usual. It's demoralizing when I'm drunk and call strangers, or a few numbers I know and I don't care whether they want to talk or not, rather it's me trying to stay alive by communicating with others. It's demoralizing when no one cares about you at all, not a soul. It's one reason, among others, why I stopped drinking so much cause I felt like I was handing a victory to those who ignore me, as if they just expect me to drink self to death, die, vanish, 'be gone' type of thing, so I stopped drinking so much. I don't know what keeps me going. I have nothing to fight for anymore, and no real believe that anything will improve in my life, not that my life is bad, but it's not prosperous. Everyone I'm around is a dud. I just moved to the wrong area or something. I don't want to depress myself by thinking about it right now. ---------------------------------------- I do feel better though, compared to earlier.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 20, 2022 19:31:35 GMT
I'm like medically bored or something, a term I just made up.
I haven't been this bored, while off from work, in months, I'm just flat on the inside, I have no objectives, nothing I feel like doing or accomplishing, that's usually when I don't spend and save up money.
I was even playing with the idea of getting a Dodge Challenger again, in hopes that it would spice up my life a bit, get me out more, but do I want those payments?
I mean even if I put some cash down, and still owed, say, 10 gran, that's still payments.
To pay off 10 grand in around 3 years, you'd still have to make payments of around $340 a month or so, for 3 years!
Let's do the math
340 x 36 = 12,240
OK, so payments would be more like 300 a month to = 10,800, but then gotta figure in interest.
Either way, I'd be making payments, and sure my life is a dud right now, but at least outside of basic rent and utilities, I don't have any major debt I'm paying (not that I supposedly don't owe stuff from years ago, but bunk that crap, I'll pay of old department store stuff from over 7 years ago if i win the lottery, other wise the heck with it, and my credit score, cash means more to me right now)
So anyways, yes, a Challenger would be cool to me, but the payments sure wouldn't be, even on a used one.
My ego is just not that big anymore and I'm single and so have no one to impress, not a soul.
All that said, I'm still terribly bored today, and yesterday, and will be tomorrow.
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