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Post by Jupiter on May 21, 2023 22:59:49 GMT
Finally, today, on the 'to do list', unclogging the bathroom sink finally came up on the random dice roll.
And now that done, can't believe it took me months to get around to that, cause now water swashes down sink with ease again.
Oh the heartache I could of saved self months ago, if I had just done this sooner.
Oh well, it's done now.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 19, 2023 18:03:13 GMT
Seems the only thing coming up on my 'to do list', today is cleaning  www.thedizzysissy.com/ I'm like my own maid and butler today, but stuff has to get done. But for some reason, cleaning up your own place totally drains you.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 25, 2023 18:07:25 GMT
For some reason I've got this fear of getting stuff done  For some reason I've got this fear of getting stuff done, stuff on the 'to do list', or whether on the list or not, I've just got this fear of getting stuff done, instead I like to procrastinate for as long as I can. I'll sit around for 3 days doing nothing, then try to get important stuff done during the last day I'm off, right before work. It's why I'm such a underachiever, I suppose. Or maybe I just don't like feeling bound by anything, I like the feeling of freedom, not long 'to do lists'....especially if things on that list involve me having to spend money.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 6, 2024 16:03:39 GMT
I've got some solid stuff I should get done today.
1. Call back, contact, all those who responded to storyboard add.
2. Finish current lesson.
3. Check balance in checking account.
4. Check texts on phone, which I've been ignoring for a day or more.
5. Pay internet provider.
Hardcore stuff I need to get done if going to get anything out of the day and feel better at end of day.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 15, 2024 4:14:36 GMT
Got all this energy, so may as well continue working off the 'to do list', which seems to keep growing. I like have 5 pages of things to do, but some are repeats. 
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 24, 2024 1:27:17 GMT
OK, I've gotta put this energy I have to use.
Not drinking nearly as much now, so my energy levels are through the roof.
I don't know what to do with the energy...I'm used to spacing off while drunk.
But when sober, you don't really space off, or maybe you do at times if aren't focused or motivated.
Maybe a 'to do list' will at least help steer my mind onto something, anything.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 12, 2024 13:33:04 GMT
The list The first thing I must do today is clean up my past by checking my phone and tablet for messages I may have received yesterday. I basically ignored all incoming calls and messages yesterday, and so today, I need to clear that tension in me by facing my past, yesterday. No one I'm concerned with is concerned about me, is what I got to tell myself. Whoever may have sent me whatever is not even thinking about me right now, so it's old energy/info. I will face or delete that old info and then move on from there. Also, I like posting 'cute' images of myself cause that's what I am on the inside is 'cute'...regardless of what society tries to convince me I am. Cute isn't a gender, cute is a personality, it's something anyone can project out of themself...and when I see myself or my image, I don't always want to see 'tough', cause I'm not always tough on the inside, I need hugs and love just like anyone else, heck, maybe even more. And looking cute to self has nothing to do with orientation either, only a low IQ caveman would think that. I feel sorry for all the males out there, especially males of color, who know they're cute, but have to hide it and cover up do to all the ignorance out there in their own communities. Humans are sick, mean, dishonest and cruel, yet we all love to claim how much God loves us, and died for us, while treating our fellow human like garbadge and tearing up the environment as well. Especially in the hood areas where everyone and their mammas love throwing trash on the ground. It's sickening to be around, a culture of trash that is. Anyways, it's Thursday, let me get started on life today...wish me luck and a hug.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 25, 2024 0:46:05 GMT
The list Time to create a 'to do list', a new one. Priorities change from day to day, sometimes multiple times a day, so I have to create new 'to do lists'. Sometimes my to do lists can grow to like 30, and be multiple pages, up to like 6 pages of things I need to do. And I chose them randomly by rolling a dice next to chore, and highest roll I do. Anyways, let me get started on something, can already feel myself zoning off.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 1, 2024 1:55:29 GMT
 If I don't stick to the 'to do list', I won't get anything done, cause as of late, my brain has been very lazy. I'll just sit and mentally drift unless have a list of things to do, and even lately that barely works. That 'umph' in me, that forward driving juice I used to have, is just not there as of late, and sometimes I wonder if that 'umph', was really driven by booze over the years, rather than me actually being genuinely enthused about things. When you stop drinking, you really do have to get to know yourself all over again. I heard once, the year you start drinking is the year you stop maturing...so if I started drinking, say, 10 years ago, that means my maturity level stopped 10 years ago. That could be good or bad, cause the older you get, maturity stops mattering after a while as you near the grave. I mean it's not like maturity can defeat death....and who wants to be an old wooden no humor stiff type anyways? I think, however, maturity does matter when a parent, and raising a family, but if alone, by yourself, not so much...what matters is to have fun, generate your own fun, because when alone, no one else will generate it for you. Anyhow, wasting time on here when I need to finish up what I was doing on the 'to do list'. Also, Halloween is nearing...cool. October has always been my favorite month. Not so much where I live now, cause in certain urban areas, or Southern areas, B folks to deadened on the inside to celebrate different holidays...the only holidays these B folks down here celebrate is rap music...24/7 rap music. |
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 25, 2024 0:00:57 GMT
 Time to break out the 'to do list', otherwise nothing will get done. Today is recovery day. Also, you really got to be careful what you put in your body now. So many fruity flavored drinks we grew up guzzling down when younger are so very awful for us...it's like drinking flavored poison. From Tang, to Kool-aid, to HC Punch, you name it, it's terrible for us. I mean put enough flavoring in bleach and bleach would taste drinkable. Be careful what you put in your body, and the makers of this terrible food/drinks, just get more cleaver as society becomes more health conscious. Adding vitamins to ammonia doesn't suddenly make ammonia good for you. Oh well, time to get started on the to do list. |
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 13, 2024 19:34:31 GMT
I really do need to get something done today  I need to get off my lazy butt and mind, and get something done today. Another cup of coffee, get dressed, groom, again, and then get started on the 'to do list'...yep
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 14, 2024 1:48:25 GMT
In a really odd checked out mood or zone today In a really odd weird checked out mood or zone today, not sure why. Haven't drank in days, and sometimes seems your normal way or non drunk way of feeling is more odd than being drunk.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 14, 2024 23:38:02 GMT
Time to write up a current 'to do list' Time to write up a current and relevant 'to do list', or I'll waste the rest of the evening and night just spacing off, I'm good at spacing off...cause in reality I'm done with life, meaning I could just spend the rest of my days in seclusion, if only I were rich. I have no desire to be apart of greater society no more, but forced to do to income needs. When younger, always dreaming of just buying some spooky older house, large house, with like 3-4 stories, and lots of rooms to explore. Imaging being alone and night while stoned in such a place, oh the adventures. Why must I live in a state where weed is illegal (Florida)...not that that stops anyone from doing it...but I don't, cause if I ever get back into driving, they test you for that...but it's one reason why they can't find good drivers these days, cause many drivers want their weed, or TSB or whatever the residue is called that they sell in stores. Anyways, time to get busy on some tasks. I have plenty of energy, even though not feeling the best on the inside.
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