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Post by Jupiter on Jan 13, 2021 6:09:04 GMT
Late night thoughts
Late night thoughts Let the writing journey begin...
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 13, 2021 6:12:56 GMT
I laid in the bed about an hour ago, computer timed out, so no lights, it was pretty dark, so dark that had eyes wide open and not a trickle of light to grasp any object with, it was as if starring into a dark void, as if in a grave.
The reality of that moment took my mind many places, metaphorical places, like what happens when your perceptive eyes are wide open and we still see nothing?, when there's no 'light' or anything positive to help guide us?
And that's how I feel sometimes while stumbling through this world, I'm like 'where's the light?'
The light I thought I was following years ago has since gone out and faded away, so now I stumble around in the metaphorical darkness.
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Post by Jupiter on Mar 4, 2021 7:04:44 GMT
I don't know if it's phycological or physical or both, or 'the mind' or who knows, but seems when I'm home I usually feel pretty healthy and 'great', but by the time I end my work shift, seems I don't feel as well.
I mean physically ill not as well, I wonder if it's do to the food I eat when I'm out?
or something else?
I mean when I cook my own food I don't ever get sick, but seems after being out and gone for 12 or so hours, I often come back home feeling not as well as when I left.
No telling what's floating around in the air out there, no telling these days, no telling what the 'gov' is releasing into the air to effect all of our health, gov combined with all these behind the scenes super rich companies now, I think to them we're all just lab rats.
I really just need to 'fast' for a few days, but hard to 'fast' while at work, since that's when using up the most calories.
Oh well, home now, diet is everything, so's having a good strong immune system so body doesn't react to every single germ cell out there in public.
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Post by Jupiter on May 21, 2021 6:08:21 GMT
I haven't forgotten about this place, but it's late, man these jobs just use up every grain of energy you have, and while at work, day dreaming, you're going to do this and that when finally off, then when off barely have enough energy to crawl into bed.
But can't complain, or can I?...sure I only work a few days a week, but this idea that we're born to just labor forever for pennies, say's who?
We labor all of our lives for 'greed'...where I stay I see older couples 'snow birds' driving down interstate in $500,000 RV's, what do you think they did to actually earn that type of money?...it wasn't labor, that's for sure, probably investors, security investment Wall Street stuff, CEO who then got millions of dollars as severance pay, plus million dollar bonuses all their careers, and other perks for being a D.C. insider...sorry, but there's no way someone earning 15 an hour at Wendy's ect, can compete with that, but still told 'Err, work is good for ya, builds character'...well what does long hours and low pay build for you when older???...nothing but resentment, that's what it builds in ya when older as you realize you've been 'played'...as another $500,000 dollar RV rolls past you on Freeway with couple in it that looks like they've never worked in their life.
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Post by Jupiter on Dec 31, 2021 4:12:20 GMT
Sometimes you can just have so many, to many, things running through your head that you end up getting burned out before acting on a single idea.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 25, 2022 2:15:11 GMT
Yes, it's late night, but not the fun type of late night, in that I gotta work tomorrow.
I've been up since 5:30 am, and it's like 10 pm now, and got to do it again tomorrow, wow, wow.
Screw anyone that says long hours of work is good for you, it's not, at least not as you get older.
Laboring for your money is a lot different than earning it through stock and bonds, and the money market, or being some CEO, ect.
Most of those guys would collapse in half if had to do what blue collar types do in a day.
Anyways, not time to do much, got in, prepared tomorrows brunch/lunch/snacks/part dinner, all so that will be less tempted to buy junk food when 'out there'.
When have a job like mine you're 'out there' all day, and get hungry, and there's corner stores everywhere, with food, junk food, so have to discipline self to resist.
And many times just get the urge to stop and go in just for the human interaction, I mean if you look nice to yourself, It sucks going through the whole day without anyone seeing how you look...who doesn't want to look nice for others?
It's late, thankfully after tomorrow I'm off for a string of days.
Shoes I ordered arrived, think I'll try those on next, may also turn a/c on for a bit just to get it down to sleeping tempurature.
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Post by Jupiter on Jun 30, 2022 2:49:54 GMT
It's time for bed, my life circumstances always seem to treat me like the closet monster
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 15, 2022 3:25:39 GMT
Time for bed.
Feel odd, have energy, but it's more than that.
I feel like it's my time to shine, as in becoming a Star, probably wrong, sure I'm wrong, but it's how I feel.
I watch all these others on YT, as in real stars from the past, like Billy Idol and all, we wouldn't be talking about them if they were just ordinary every day type of people...
Sometimes I don't mind being ordinary, but there's a side of me that wants more, mainly money, I'd rather be rich, than famous, but sometimes you have to become famous first in order to become rich.
Later and goodnight.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 9, 2022 3:44:20 GMT
What a violent world as of late.
I suppose the world has always been violent, but I guess just didn't see it so much cause social media and cell phone cameras weren't recording all the violence 45 years ago, 70 years ago.
I mean back then, if a reporter wasn't there with their camera, the public didn't see it, where as now it's like the public is or are the reporters now.
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Post by Jupiter on Sept 9, 2022 3:45:36 GMT
the Queen of England passed away today...just typing that in as a footnote.
I can still remember when Princess Diana passed away..
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 21, 2023 4:07:57 GMT
I look younger than I deserve to look. But actually I do work at it, and if didn't drink, would look even more younger. And I even move younger than I deserve to move, but that's cause I do a lot of stretching now. Various gym teachers/instructors I've had over the years always did emphasize how important stretching is or was, and now I see what they mean. Plus I've been taking vitamin consumption much more seriously. I mean it's one thing to look old, but another thing to move like you're old, I don't want either to happen to me...lol or cry to self.  |
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Post by Jupiter on Feb 9, 2023 4:17:47 GMT
Welp, and just like that, the minute I finally get relaxed, at ease and comfortable, it's about time for bed.
Then gotta wake up and be a labor slave all over again, and face all kinds of dangers and maniacs out there on the highways and bi-ways.
Oh well, sometimes I just feel so small and helpless to do anything about anything that annoys me.
Goodnight and back soon, hopefully.
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 8, 2023 3:11:18 GMT
Time for bed, not much to say, long work day, gotta do it again tomorrow, then off again for a few days.
The world is crazy, I control none of it.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 11, 2023 4:10:13 GMT
Just after midnight, just got in from work about 40 minutes ago.
What a day.
Not much time to do anything cause gotta do it again tomorrow.
I so wish I had fiscally planned better when younger so that I could be in position to just take a whole year off now.
Work is over rated to me, as you age, especially if not prospering for your labor.
I don't like how society is turning out, all I know is I had nothing to do with engineering it to be this way.
Anyways, in a bit of a crabby mood, long day.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 12, 2023 3:24:50 GMT
I've been typing away on another blog forum, so really haven't much else to say or express here.
It's late, long day, gotta do it again tomorrow, so just about out of gas.
Actually, I'm getting my second wind, but on a work night, getting your second wind means nothing, cause you have to go to bed to be rested for work the next day.
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