Dating and Romance

With me, if, when, I run dating add on C/L, I respond to whomever responds to me, or me first.

I've learned over the years it's not who you like, but who likes you that will determine if relationship works or not.

Kind of like when younger, say in elementary school, and classmate has crush on you, and for like a whole year you can't shake them...that's what I mean.

Same thing applies as an adult, you gotta find someone who sees valuable qualities in you in order for relationship to work, for if they don't see nothing amazing in you, relationship will fizzle out.

When we're younger we all take for granted that someone out there will see us as special, but as everyone knows, the older you get the less chance of that happening.

1. The older you get, the more people in your dating pool get married, have kids and settle

2. The older you get, the less sexy you become, unless you take care of self.

3. The older you get, others get, reality kicks in, and things they may have liked you for in past, aren't practical anymore.

I mean the older you get, the less chance of someone developing a crush on you, as pride builds ect ect.

I look back and feel bad for ever taking any ones interest in me for granted, had I chosen any of them I'd be perfectly happy today.

I ran a add and had 3 immediate responses..

1. Urban black lady, light skinned

2. Hispanic lady

3. European 'white' lady wit Italian in her culture.

Of all 3, believe it or not number 3 is the one I'm clicking with thus far.

They have good sense of humor, are honest, not stuck up, and forthright.

And they don't demand I look like a celebrity, in other words they see who I am and accept that.

So we'll see what happens.

I just know I'm tired of being single...

I'm somewhat of a social and ethnic mutt, in that it's hard for me to fit in anywhere cause on the inside I'm so many.

Example

1. I look black on the outside to some, but was raised in Eastern, WA around rural 'whites', and identify with rural culture probably more so than I do with modern urban culture...and that throws many women, people, off.

2. I was raised around post hippies, rockers, skaters, city youth (at the time I was young to), country folk, goth, native Americans, white racists and black liberation types...and more.
So if I were an animal I'd look like this...



I'd be a duck billed platopus with duck bill, beaver tail and geese feet, with otter body.

As such it takes someone very broad on the inside to accept and understand someone like me.

But to shallow types who sum my whole being up based on thin 1.5mm of skin tone, they fail to see anything beyond what their own social conditioning allows them to see.

In other words to your typical political bigot I'm simply a Democrat on welfare who voted for Obama....period.

(even though males can't qualify for welfare).

Anyways I'm getting way way off course.

Much much more to follow.

Women who don't want to completely let go in a relationship, or possibility of one.

As if they have their own internal time clock of when they want to move it forward.

I'm lonely but I'm not.

I mean I always say I want a wife and family, until I do, than I'm not interested.

I think it's the long process of getting to know someone that discourages me.

I mean how many times do you, or have you, invested months, even years, into someone emotionally, just to find out you're not right for each other do to a rift, or one single moment?

Then you have to start all over again with another and go through whole familiarization process all over again.

Even dating sites bum me out now, cause of course you get dozens of hits, winks, hello's, it's all so generic, but shopping for people, a date, a mate is not like shopping for shoes.

There's always that hidden story, hidden drama line, that never comes out until weeks or months later.

I mean after all if were perfect none would be single, or still married.

Myself, never married and not in a relationship in very long time, but why would decent looking women be on dating site?

I've been through this before, I guess that's why I'm a bit hesitant or unwilling to take it serious.

Really don't know if I even need anyone anymore, I mean I've come this far on my own, not sure what another would add to my life accept drama.

First few weeks of new relationship critical to whether or not it will last or not

Me personally, to mature to 'chase' emotions in any relationship now.

To me it's like 'Either come ready or don't come at all'.

When you've been on your own for a while you're less emotionally vulnerable to 'games', and the whole persue and catch games.

You just simply want someone who's ready to be in a relationship, without all the games, or immaturity ect.

I think true love has 'frog Prince/Princess' effect on person, in that it's Love that often is the only thing that motivates one to change for the better



Funny how true to life this fable or fairy tale is, of the frog prince/princess, in that it often takes 'Love' or the feeling that someone Loves you, or is trying to, in order for your better angels to come out.

Many can't see that, but those who do are often in for very pleasant surprise.

Have American women become to generic?

A India woman gave me some food today, (Over seas India)



And whatever was in food, very spicy, totally 'healed' me...it was like medicine.

Cleared nostrils opened brain up and more.

All in the food, natural food, wow.

No wonder so many from Asian nations so smart and bright, cause they don't shove junk food down their throats all day and night long.

It's in the food!.

They still eat natural food, which is medicine...and no wonder the 'Beatles' were all caught up in that for a while..



This is amazing to me...life changing to me...it's all in the food, nature, and sadly the Western world has stifled a lot of the natural healing elements of nature for profit and mas production.

Most American women have had their ancestorial instincts, culture and habits, bred out of them, and it's been artificially replaced by a fake plastic generic culture of fast food and pop culture.

Life is short...and I've never had luck with the generic female culture, that just wants to breed and then discard you as state takes care of them while state forces you to pay for kid, family, you can't see.

Foreign women still retain 'cultural heritage', sense of family and honor, that the 'new world' has long sense snubbed out.

I'm not 'generic' and think meant for more...

To be continued...

Here's what annoys me, in case anyone ever does biography on life when I'm gone.

It annoys me that older women always seem to like me, see qualities in me that they didn't when younger.

And what that tells me is that 'youth is dumb'.

My qualities haven't changed over the years, rather people do, women do, I do not...not when it comes to base principles anyways.

How I express those principles, yes, that has changed.

But ye, like today older lady = 'oh you have such nice eyes'...me = 'Why couldn't you of told me that when you were in your prime?'

Why didn't these women, when in their prime, when fertile, notice me?

Give me a family, the family I've always dreamed of having?

Instead they're all divorced now, beat up, worn and torn, and now they want me to notice them?

They want to give me their left overs??

While giving felons, dead beat Dads, Fathers, their best???

How does that make me feel?

Come to me when you have no other options in life???

When I'm still 'together', sexy and responsible???

Well why didn't you notice that about me when I was a bit younger, and you as well???

I does kind of piss me off.


When I was in my prime, women ignored me, when they were in their prime, they ignored me, now that I'm still in my prime, and they're not, they notice me.

I feel hurt by that.