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Post by Jupiter on Mar 16, 2021 5:31:44 GMT
Examining the Mind Examining the Mind..
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Post by Jupiter on Mar 16, 2021 5:38:19 GMT
When I'm alone, I tend to concoct scenerio's of being ravaged by 'beasts', that are not human, but that are very much larger than myself...  And I think I do is as a form of comfort, why? Cause I guess in my mind, affection, even if from some gigantic slithery worm like creature, or half reptile half insect creature, affection from such a creature, to me, I guess is better than no affection at all. And 'man' just seems to small for me now, it's like 'once go Alien lizard creature, won't go back to 'man'. It's like I 'scare people', but not scary, so it's like I imagine creatures so much larger than myself, heavier than myself, that I'm the one that seems like the victim or the one being handled or cuddled. And for some reason I think it's actually a form of comfort, knowing there's always something bigger than myself, heavier, more menacing looking. Kind of the way people enjoy watching scary movies I guess, but I live my movies out within my mind where I'm the main character. |
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 2, 2022 0:50:38 GMT
I don't feel like 'me' right now, whatever me is suppose to be.
Sometimes I feel there's multiple me's inside of me, each with it's own mission in this world, each version of me wanting to stand out and live.
Like having 5 twins with multiple personalities, each vying for attention, each thinking that if only 'it' could stand out, could do a better job.
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 2, 2022 0:52:35 GMT
I feel I have one more chance to make a difference and matter in this world, if I don't take that chance, then what will matter?
Living life without purpose, or a 'fight' is what?
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Post by Jupiter on Jul 2, 2022 1:05:40 GMT
Sometimes you can watch a movie you feel you have nothing in common with, then observe one scene within the movie that touches you.
I'm watching 'Thor', a Marvel comic movie, and the one scene that kind of touched me was after he was banned to earth, for being disruptive.
Well, his hammer followed him, and he thought if only he could touch the hammer, all his 'might' would come back, but when he did, nothing.
Not only was he banished from his realm, but his Father also, I guess, banished him from his god like powers.
Not sure what happens next, I stopped watching for now.
But I can relate to that scene in that I often feel I've been banished from whatever greatness I thought I was suppose to have, banished to be a mortal among mortals.
And it's not a good feeling.
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Post by Jupiter on Nov 26, 2022 11:42:48 GMT
I was ____ with _____ while in bed, and my gosh did I start sweating a lot while under a big pile of stuff.
I think sweating helps flush contaminants out of your body.
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Post by Jupiter on Feb 13, 2023 5:58:36 GMT
When you rob a man of his family, you rob that man of greatness, in that men are at their best when they feel they're fighting for someone or cause.
The best way to neutralize a man is to keep that man socially isolated.
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Post by Jupiter on Feb 13, 2023 6:00:09 GMT
Sometimes you have to fall out of love, with those who don't love you back, as to not wreck your life trying to impress or protect those who don't love you.
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Post by Jupiter on Feb 13, 2023 6:02:49 GMT
Sometimes I think it's OK, to just be still.
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Post by Jupiter on Aug 22, 2023 15:07:52 GMT
Sometimes, if, when, desired circumstances do finally arise, sometimes by that time, you've forgotten how to be happy enough to enjoy it, or those times.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 1, 2023 5:18:20 GMT
Once I'm off work, and have a few days off, I never look at the clock.
I have no clocks in my place, and if not scheduled to be anywhere, I never concern myself with time.
You can't truly be free if always worried about the time.
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Post by Jupiter on Oct 30, 2023 8:30:16 GMT
I think hell, for most of us, begins while we're still alive
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Post by Jupiter on Jan 24, 2024 12:50:00 GMT
Gravity You never quite know where a person is, mentally, until you study their art, or at least where they are in that moment.
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 20, 2024 23:15:45 GMT
I literally feel like I'm in some alternate universe right now I feel like I'm in some alternative universe right now. I feel distant from my current reality, in that my current reality has changed so much over the past few months, that, I don't know, not sure how my inner self is relating to it, or if at all. I mean you spend, I spent, so much of my adult life dreaming of what I really wanted to do, and then when actually start doing it, it's like a shock onto the system, the consciousness. Sounds odd, I know. Not sure what to make of it yet, and or if capable of rising up to the new occasion and actully helping self turn life around, meet new people, be thrust into new environments, challengers, and more. I wonder if anyone else has gone through the same?
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Post by Jupiter on Apr 21, 2024 3:02:16 GMT
Starting a new life can feel like you're living in a alternative universe, at first
Your life really only ends when you want it to, and not when others think it should.
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